What a BITCH the day has turned out to be...

What nonsense am I going to put on my blog today….?! Hey I gonna write about what a bitch the day has turned out to be… I’ve finally gotten a good night’s sleep after the mosquitoes have been bugging me (I really mean like a pain-in-the-ass bugging…) for nights now. Gosh… WTF… I keep saying to myself when the buzzing sound wakes me up at night. I could just of course close the window and start the air-conditioning if I didn’t hate sleeping in the a/c. To make things worse, the a/c unit is trying to be a bitch after its just been serviced… I dunno what the service-men are doing… It was colder before it was serviced… WTF man!!! So I finally put up a nice mosquito net for myself and managed to get a good night’s sleep. So this morning I woke up thinking that that would be a nice day. I found out it was the contrary when I got a fax from one of my suppliers. This guy is so ‘rude’, gosh… WTF man!!! His fax was to inform me that I am late in making further payments for the machinery that I ordered. As such he will no longer make any more dealings with me and that all payments that I have made shall be forfeited. Gosh is he mad… I thought. I told him that I have not made further payment because I am still waiting for my investors to give me the go. The fact that I’ve placed some deposit (when I say some I don’t mean some… NOT at all…) should tell him that I am a serious buyer. Gosh. So he just sends me this fax without even a phone call… Well, he’s not getting a call from me either; I’ll get my lawyer to do it.
So the day goes on… then we received visitors from KL. My consultants to advise me on the opening of my new bakery supplies shop here in Penang. I didn’t say that before huh?! Ah well… the discussion went well, we managed to cover most of the issues at hand. Then she wanted to see the shop that I have beforehand made arrangements to rent. I have given the deposit for this one and I was supposed to sign the agreement today. So I call up the agent for the shop and he tells me that I can’t rent the shop… WTF man!!! After I’ve seen like half the shops in Penang, and finally chose that one (after looking at it twice), and he tells me this… Gosh WTF man!!! It appears that the owner is trying to sue the previous tenant so he’d pay rent for another year even though he’s moving out after two months notice… WTF man!!! As if the tsunami wasn’t depressing enough.
I’ve still got to amend my research proposal for my Masters program. It’s been lying on the shelf for quite some time now. Darn, the senate is to sit middle next month.
Oh I better stop now so I don’t get more stressed than I already am.
~ShaZ

Grocery Shopping... and the Tsunami?!

I haven’t been writing much on my blog lately. Actually there’s not much to write anyway. I just stayed home mainly and the usual trip to Giant Hypermart on Burmah Street. I must go there a lot; the cashier lady recognizes me; the man trying to get people to join the Standard Charted Credit Balance Transfer Program recognizes me (after he’s tried to get me in a few times…). Gosh!!! There’s got to be another place that I could go for grocery shopping. There a Cold Storage in Gurney Plaza but going there is such a hassle; parking is a nightmare, the crowd is a bitch (I just can’t stand crowded places) and traffic is horrendous most of the time.
I was working on my Neopets when the tsunami hit Penang. I heard this noise and then I saw a white line (waves actually) coming our way. I thought it was weird because we never have waves here on Gurney Drive. Oh well… I went to the window to get a closer look. My two sisters followed along. The waves just kept coming and eventually overflowed onto the streets. Gosh… Some of the cars parked along the streets actually got swept by the bug waves. Ah well… I guess the coverage on the news is enough…
Gosh I am getting lazy again. Maybe I’ll write more tomorrow.
~ShaZ

Re-Evaluation of me...

Tonight... Eh?!.. Well, this morning I feel bad for earning more money, feel bad for being born with a title, and feel bad coz I wear a Tag. I just realised how I have taken things for granted over the years. I just realised that an average employee making MYR2,000/month would have to spend at least MYR600 for rent, MYR600 or so for an average car, MYR100 for electricity, water and phone if he is cautious with usage, MYR300 for food, petrol and other things; which leave him/her MYR400 or so to save. Let’s see... MYR200 goes to the wedding fund; MYR200 left for mom and dad... Gosh...!!! How would he/she ever afford a Tag?! What about education loans, medical bills, and other stuff...?! But they manage... and I shouldn't take these for granted.
Gosh it's late and those motorcycles are still racing around and creating a ruckus...
I realised this after chatting to a Silly Cow. You see I got back really late coz I had a business meeting that dragged on until almost midnight... By the time I got back it was already 12:30 or so... I am really tired and I am really zoned out from all that talking... I am also very lonely coz it been like months since I've seen any of my friends for a decent duration of time :-(. Somehow or rather, he starting disputing my simpleness and 'attacked' my little Tag. I realise that not many might have the luxury so I am thankful and I pledge to be appreciative of all the benefits that God has to offer me. A quick peek into the mailbox earlier unveiled a white envelope with my name peeking through the window prefixed with Yang Mulia... Suck ups… Oh well I thought... When I got in I threw it onto the dining table and took a shower to get ready for bed. Hooked up my laptop to check my e-mail... Gosh it took sometime for the thing to sign into Yahoo, MSN, Skype and for Outlook to launch. I checked the letter... Just Maybank reminding me how much I have charged to my credit card. I am not going to put figures here coz it's absurd. I checked my Hi5, Friendster and went through the junk mails in my inbox. Got an e-mail from a friend back in uni... That cheered me up a little... He said that he is moving to Singapore coz he got a job there. That's when I started to talk to a Silly Cow coz I needed help with this blog formatting. Well, we talked about many things but the Tag issue really touched me. It’s late and I am going to sign off here.
Thanks Silly Cow
~Shaz

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“Lest you mistake me… for any other than a simple Man”

~~by Me

~~I've kept my head; I've kept my smile,
~~But how my heart aches... Oh, how its aches;

~~I am but only one, whilst they are all,
~~Trust not only one, 'cept it be the One
~~Doubt Him not, His love is great,
~~Have faith, 'tis harder than stone

~~My time I have spent, my trust have been broken,
~~My heart had been shattered, one time too many,
~~Yet still I am here... Faithful, deceived, and hurt,
~~Here I will stay... here I will stay;

~~Lest I be wasted, my soul shan’t condone it;

~~Lest I be a fool, O’ Merciful Lord I beg of thee’, don’t allow it;

~~I have traveled the destined path and hear the Muses sing,
~~I have stroked the deceiver of men and felt its wrath,
~~Still I kept on smiling;

~~If I was not truthful, strike me O’ Mighty One,
~~lest my heart filled with anger,
~~I shall treat the broken hearts, and mend the broken homes,
~~Then punish me Lord, for the words I have spoken
~~and the wrongs I failed to make right;

~~Lest I be a fool, let me lose the bet,
~~Lest I waste away, let me lose the bet,
~~Let me not be quiet, for others should learn from my sins,
~~Else strike me O’ Lord for I am of no use,
~~I pray to thee’,
~~I am a simple man;

~~O how I owe you dear heart,
~~My tears shed, O how you wept,
~~but you kept on, as I whispered: “… remember The Lord… remember thy Prophet…”
~~one by one they wilted, whilst I stayed on,
~~O how you wept, but I had to stay on,
~~To pass the message “O please Hold on!”

~~I am but a simple man,
~~Let me be honest with humanity,
~~Let me stand in awe,
~~Teach me humility,
~~else strike me O’ Lord;

~~Lest I lose my Humanity, let them hurt me;

~~I pray to You, O’ Merciful One, give me the strength to count on;

~~I have traveled this journey,
~~to which I still see no end,
~~I have ploughed the land, and planted the seeds,
~~I have kept on, O how you bled,
~~my poor arms, “… just a little more…”
~~lest You take my life away,
~~and I wasted the moments,
~~I am but a simple Man!

~~Shazrin
~~04.11.2004

First Post

How do we start this....?! Hmm.... Well, the fact that I am up this late shows that I have not life... That doesn't sound nice... Actually, a friend introduced me to this blog thing and I am really not sure how to begin... So to those who feel like they have wasted their time on my blog, I offer my sincerest apologies...
I will start by talking about myself I guess... I am 23 years old, a chemical engineer, still single... Gosh this sucks... You know what... I just realized that I've got nothing nice that I can share... I see my life, thus far, as a long boring black and white movie. Ever since I graduated last August life has been a bitch. Literally. I have lost my sense of being. It was really bad at first. I started sleeping. I really mean SLEEPING to make up for lost times. After a week or so I started to get sick of sleeping, that’s when reality knocks you in the head... HARD. So what are you going to do now? When that question can't be answered I really panicked. This is when you take a deep breath and recompose yourself. The picture doesn’t fall into place so easily though, it sure took some time. Especially with no one to lead the way. You realise that each wrong step you might take has dire effects on your future. Even a slight miscalculation could mean devastation. Well, not really. But when you realise that you'd have to start paying your own cellphone bills, buy your own clothes, shoes and stuff, and actually start saving to buy a car, a house, get married... this is when you start to plan. I was lucky enough to be dumped into the family business so even though I wanted to further my studies to take up my Masters Degree I could still make a handsome amount of cash. Well, enough to get me by at least. Getting used to your job is another story on its own. As if getting your life back on track wasn't enough. After a few months, everything starts to clear up; you get used to your job; you don't miss your friends so damned much; and you don't stay up too late when you don't have to anymore. Responsibility grows on you. For now I am content with my life, although at times it’s still a bitch; and I am happy with what I have accomplished thus far. There's a long way to go.
~~ShaZ