2010

It's week 4 of 2010... So what have I got to show for myself for 2009? Heh??? As I am typing this the first thought that comes to mind is: "huh??? It's 2010 already?"

I guess being too comfortable makes you lose your bearing on time. I have never thought of myself as an achiever... I guess that's why I have never really bothered with much in life. I just go through my routine day after day. And before I know it... Bam... It's 2010.

It's like I've slept through the whole year. No achievements to show for. Darn it.

Well. This is another year. Let's see if this one counts then.

Bless.

ShaZ

Feelings...

Hey Boo,

It's funny how you constantly remind and force yourself not to care about something... but turn out to care about it anyway... Well, when it comes to matters of the heart and feelings, logic doesn't really apply anymore I guess. But, with my vast and wide experiences a plastic smile is always managed when the situation warrants it. I am not saying that I like giving out plastic smiles nor am I condoning it. It's just that some instances makes it more just to be plastic. Hmmmpphhh. I hate the feeling really. But as people say... "nak jaga hati orang" so I am just going to stomach it.

Bottom line... In this case it is more responsible to be pretentious.

Bles...

~ShaZ

Lesson in life: Know your place!

Dear Boo,

It's not a new thing but I feel that I need to keep telling myself this again and again. I never seem to learn...

Acceptance it would appear, doesn't come easy with everyone. The worst mistake one could ever make is to accept others as equal one others perceive one as less. Well... I am not alien to being treated such. But it really doesn't make it any less painful. Well, I guess it's God's way of giving me a whiff of my own medicine. Hmmmpphhh. I remember how I used to despise being compared to some effeminate celebrity. Then I realised one thing. I was only angry because I thought myself better than these people. Which was entirely unfair and unjust of me. But I am okay now. I really do understand the feeling. Again, it doesn't make any less painful. You need to keep telling yourself sometimes... that you're not any less of a person just for being yourself. If only those around you were not always such a hypocrite. I shouldn't be angry or spiteful though. Just because I am comfortable with myself doesn't make it right for me to force others to give up their battle to fit in as "normal". Hahaha. Good luck people.

Hang on... Back to the lesson. So, if you sense that you don't belong or fit in... That's probably because you don't! So unless you want to subject yourself or others to some agony... steer clear!

I learnt my lesson. For now at least...
As the saying goes...

"... manja pada yang sayang..."

Btw, this iPhone blogging is really quite convenient. I get to ramble whenever and whereever I want. How's that for technology!!!!

Ok then.

Bless...

~ShaZ

Blogger Lite on iPhone

Dear Boo,

This is first post on blogger lite. Let's see if blogging on iPhone helps bring you back to life.

ShaZ