I've MoVeD...

Hey all,
I know it's a little late to be announcing... but I've moved my blog HERE

cOuRtiNg diSasTeR...

Hey boo,
I just know I am courting disaster at work by taking up too many things... well, actually it's not too many but with my lack of progress anything more can't be a good thing... but I am thinking 'some people work better under pressure' and I figured a little more could give me that little pressure I need... to get some action finally...
So, I enrolled myself on an online Masters level course from DTU (Netherlands) on Environmental Management... Today was my first day, having an online class... quite the experience... this is how my classroom looks like.

the class left for lunch and I need something to eat too... you can see the lecturer there...
Gosh I have so much to b*tch about lately... but so little time to do it...
maybe tomorrow... hehehe
Bless...

SiCk...

Hey boo...
today I got my very first medical leave (mc) from my doctor... I've never taken sick leave ever... and that tradition didn't break... to my stubbornness, I stayed in UM the whole day... f*ck was it a bad idea...
Now, I've swallowed tonnes of pills, nauseated, hungry (but cannot eat), and bloody feverish... hope i make it home tonight in one piece... ameen...
bless all of you...
~ShaZ

a GifT fRoM a FrEn...

Thanx Salam...
here we go...a lil' promo for you...

wtf...?!

Was doing my thing when I came accross this... WTF?!
Under Construction writes about how you can get in trouble with yer bloggies...
you can't shit without getting in trouble eh?!
heh...?! how's that for anti-establishment... *wink*

wtf...?!

After walking in the dreadful heat from Dewan Tunku Canselor... I can still smile... I was in charge of calling out the names of graduates from the Chemical Engineering Dept.... heh...

so... baby hippo or baby cow?!!! calf u idiot

TeN miSeRabLe dAyS iNtO 25...

So it really has been ten miserable days into my twenty-fifth year on earth and I am still clueless... still getting daily lectures from this reflection of me saying "... where the fuck do you think you are going?!.... hey guess what, it's a new year and you're still a bitch... geez man you FAT..." and every now and then "... fuck you dang you, make yourself useful why don't... go screw some gurls or something..." and if I get really lucky "FUCK OFF!!!"
Actually, reflecting my current situation (to others) I haven't much to complain about... there you go bicth... contradict yourself... I am quite comfortable here in UM... getting my monthly paycheck on the 23rd of every month, lecturing one to two hours four days a week, and watering the assortment of cacti that is my collection every Wednesdays. Heh!?
Ramblings aside...
updates are called for...

aBouT mE...

Tagged by Bill/Will. Lets see, ahems......... here we go

10 YEARS AGO I WAS :
a virgin;
just registered to this HellHole called Sekolah Menengah Sultan Abdul Samad after being abroad for a few years. Joining the Malaysian education system straight into Form 3 is not recommended. There’re subjects like BM, Geog, History, and Islamic Religion that are totally alien subjects to me… I was placed in a ‘bad’ class… had a feel of what it’s like in a delinquent class…
fat and I weighted more than 90 kgs at that time.

5 YEARS AGO I WAS :
still a virgin;
19 years old…

1 YEAR AGO I WAS :
still a virgin;
still 19 years old…;
CEO of a company; Living in a luxury condo on Gurney Drive, Penang;
never thinking about my spendings;
fit… shit what am I doing here now?!

YESTERDAY I WAS :
working in my office until almost 10 pm…;
laid… yeah, like that’ll ever happen here…;
writing my research project progress report for the HR office to extend my work contract;
blogging.

5 MOST RECENT SONGS I LISTENED TO :
May It Be - Enya
Jezebel - Sade
No Scrub - TLC
Hips Don’t Lie - Shakira
Falling in to you – Celine Dion

5 SONGS I KNOW ALL THE WORDS TO :
Don’t Speak – No Doubt
errmm….
Hmmm…
Baa Baa Black Sheep
Twnikle Twinkle Little Star…
this is hard… and pathetic…

IDEAL PLACES FOR RUNNING AWAY TO :
HOME
HOME
HOME

5 THINGS I REALLY WANT :
My Masters Degree
A new notebook…
A raise -stole this from Will
a set of ½” tubular membrane set for MWCO of 50k, 100k, 150k and 200k
I want my 32” waist again…

5 THINGS I SHOULD BE DOING RIGHT NOW :
Running my experiments;
Writing my report;
Reading the ten thousand journal papers on my desk;
Drinking coffee;
I am going to say drinking coffee again.

5 BIGGEST JOYS IN MY LIFE :
Family
Friends
my PS2
Family…
errr Family…!!!

5 PEOPLE I TAG :
I don’t think that many people come here… anyways I tag:
FaRaH
Sleepin Beauty
Yenshiong
NeLLe
AmaT tue kutuk!!! coz I have noone else

Performancing...?!

Hey Boo...
So today I was doing some housekeeping for my PC and found some nice extensions for Firefox... Performancing... helps you post onto your blogs... I think it's cool...
We'll try more tomorrow okay... Bless...
~ShaZ

mY LiFe

Hey boo,

I’ve been really tired lately… investing most of my life into work and education. I leave home at seven in the morning everyday and I don’t come back until after 8 pm. It seems that the more I put in, the more things come up… what’s worse is all these things are little donkey errands that no one wants. The kind of work that nobody cares to appreciate… and being the junior staff makes me the default candidate for these things.

Then there’s also my research work… which is stagnant by the way; and it’s my entire damned fault because I don’t have the freakin’ heart to say “… this is not in my f*&king job description… so go &*%$ yourself!”
So I guess I was fated to run errands… I really shouldn’t say more…

Getting down on work… what do you do when going home at 8 pm everyday is not enough to get work done?
disconnect the damn computer at the office and lug the blasted thing home…

So… back to work then…

Bless…
~ShaZ

QueAsY

Hey boo…
I’ve had 3 cups of coffee, a cup of Milo and a cup earl grey… and I am feeling a bit queasy from reading too many articles from Science Direct so I thought I’d check in for a quick post…
Yesterday was my first meet with our new Vice Chancellor… Datuk Rafiah Salim… she delivered the officiating speech for UM Graduate Month 2006 and I was quite impressed. I like her speech.
Oh dear… I guess queasiness is getting to me… so I’ll stop here…
Bless…
~ShaZ

NiCe sOnG

Hey boo,
I’ve a new addiction… this is a beautiful song.

aBouT noThiNg aT aLL...

Hey boo,
Forgive the lack of updates, this time it is deliberate… for some time now I’ve noticed that if I post too often I tend to write too much… so much so that I might reveal more than is appropriate… don’t get me wrong, I am all for the ‘open book’ lifestyle and all but sometimes there are issues or secrets that doesn’t belong to us; thus making it inappropriate to write somewhere everyone can read… I can see that like most bloggers I am being vague… but then hey… that’s the way it ought to be… :)
So to post on my current activities…
I should say that last week was rather productive. What with a research assistant by my side, courtesy of NMS, there have been some progress in my research… finally… aside from revamping one of our membrane dedicated laboratory, the RA, Fauzi, is also helping with my research work… for the past week he’s been helping me with the compiling of literature thereby marking the infant steps of progress in my research project. I’ve also managed to set aside a few documentation tasks assigned by the Head leaving me just a little more on the IChemE accreditation form… I should say that this will be behind me soon enough…
The students’ exam result is finally released today… my worry is that with the number of failures for my subject I’d be marked as the ‘killer’ staffs in the Department. God only knows how much I’ve tried to help but the subject proves to be rather difficult for a large chunk of my class… now I know for a fact that the last thing a lecturer wants is for a student to fail his or her subject… oh well… I guess all will turn out well. Life has a way of being like that most of the time… I mean I graduated fine now, didn’t I?!
This post must have taken a wrong turn somewhere… I don’t know what else to write…
Bless…
~ShaZ

tHe pAsT tWo WeeKs...!!!

Hey Boo,
It’s been two weeks since my last post… flowers have bloomed, Vice Chancellors have changed (the University of Malaya have had the honor… or not… we’ll see)… and I have gained weight… *sigh* I feel like 200 kilos of lard… been eating like there’s no tomorrow…
So what do I choose to post about the past few weeks…

About bitches and shopping carts :
I was at Giants in Taman Connaught last weekend, Saturday afternoon, to do some grocery shopping and boy was the place crowded… I didn’t mind the crowd too much but it’s the attitude of the crowd that pissed me off a little. Well, for starters, there’s a big crowd… so you’d expect the place to be cramped with mothers and kids staring at aisles and aisles of stuff to buy… but what you don’t expect is their leaving their shopping carts all over the place while they stare down at whether they should get the curry flavored Maggi mee or curry flavored Mammee mee… I mean, if you see someone trying their best to maneuver their shopping carts to pass through, you’d feel some obligation to move your f8cking cart an inch or two to make way right?!!... but no… they’d rather take their sweet f8cking time and let the other person wait creating a shopping cart jam behind him… I was SOOO tempted to yell out “hey bitch!!! Move you big fat f8cking cart!!!” I mean get that f8cking mee and move… so okay, after a long and agonizing wait she finally decides to move her damn cart without the slightest feeling of remorse and the crowd behind me finally manage to move on… after a challenging maneuver that would leave the US Air Force in awe, passing through a bunch of male foreign workers holding hands and two teenage couples that had trouble walking because they were walking so close together it looked like they were Siamese twins fused at their asses… theirs this you couple and their baby in the cart so conveniently placed across the aisle so no one could pass while mommy decides whether to get daddy the green or blue briefs… the wait starts again… I mean if we say “excuse me…” I am sure we’d get one of those “Tak reti nak sabar ker..?” or the “Takleh tunggu sekejap ker..?” from these kinds of people… I mean, hello… you ingat bapak you punye shopping mall ker… from that I can conclude, people park their carts as recklessly as they do their cars… so they should have some mall police writing tickets to these SOBs… phewwwsss… that’s that then…

About OTO Big Foot: reflexology foot massager :
So we’ve had this thing lying in the house for a few weeks now… everyone seems to love sticking their feet into the two holes on top of this thing and relax while it massages your two sore feet for ten minutes or so… but not me… no sir…
So, last Friday night I decided to try again, after I’ve had some discomfort trying it the last time… I mean I paid over two thousand Ringgit for the thing, I was thinking that I should get at least some pleasure from it right… so I stuck my feet in and started the machine… it felt quite good at first… then it started to hurt at the ball of my feet… not too much though so I figure it’s the machine doing its thing… so at the end of the program I took my feet out, blood circulation improved and all *wink* with a bonus blister on both the ball of my feet… ouch… I yelped when I stood up putting some pressure on my feet… so for the past two days, I’ve been walking like I am wearing an invisible high heeled shoes… conclusion… no Big Foot for me…my feet are too thick I think… so the pressure is too much… I mean everyone else don’t get the problem so I must be me… *sigh*

About eating too much :
Meeting = Food

Chemical Engineering Undergraduate Research Day 2006 = Food X3 = coffee breakX2 + Lunch

3 day Workshop in PD = Food X18 = (b’fast + coffee breakX3 + lunch + dinner + supper) X3 days

So I’ve been eating too much…

Ok for now…
Bless…
~ShaZ

I aM SoOoO noT mUsiCaL...!!!

Hey boo,
I was helping a blogger friend get some music on her blog when I got this idea… what if I did something really stupid today?! Like sing and post it… well I did… and here it is…

I think that's quite enough... I am no singer… so don’t criticize okay… I didn’t know what to sing at first… err… I still don’t actually… in case you were wondering, that was actually Don’t Speak… hehe
I think it’d be nice to be able to speak out some of my future posts… that way I can be more expressive rite?! Hmmm… oh well…
Bless…
~ShaZ

Bitch...!!!

Hey Boo,
I guess the scariest thing is being different… especially when one is beginning to get comfortable with his environment. I don’t know what made me think this; but it hit me real bad when a friend of my mom, let’s call her Big Mouthed Bitch in the middle of a conversation during dinner last nite…
… bakpe gureed ngak tu… sayang jer… right to my face… I mean what the fuck right?! I was sitting across of her for God’s sake… curses to the Big Mouthed Bitch
I haven’t had such a slap in the face for a while now… it’s not like I go all out to get attention or anything like that… so why be fucking rude and say it to my face right?! Like it’s any of her business in the first place… I mean sheesh…
It’s probably a bad move to keep writing about this… I mean, there’s just no point… like I said earlier… I will not be depressed over these things. Besides, I am doing my share to society, I’d like to think I am a good son, and I am sure as hell a nice person… so I won’t let anyone let me think otherwise…
I’ll stop for now…
Bless…
~ShaZ

WeLcOmE bAcK

I was discussing about life and choices with Professor Nik on the way back from Kmpung Baru today. Traffic was quite heavy so we had a good thirty minutes before we arrived at UM. She has some good views to life and I can’t help but feel that somehow she understands me… to an extent anyways.
… people often fail to recognize the most valuable gift God has given us… choice... NMS
Some people just don’t understand the choices that I make… the paths I choose to walk. Perhaps people have different perceptions, or perhaps they don’t see what I see and want what I want… to me the peace that I have found is the most valuable thing and the best choice that I have made in my life thus far… I am not about to leave; to go abroad… not for the glamour. It wouldn’t be right. The consequences would be dire… I am sure of it. So I am sticking to the original plan… complete my MEngSc and PhD in Malaysia… in UM… that’s that then…
Sorry for the vague posts lately… I’ll be posting some pictures of the cacti that I got from Cameron Highlands…
Bless…
~ShaZ

a NeW bEgiNniNg....

Hey boo…
One week since my last update… enough said, I am lazy… and depressed, and bitchy… well, maybe not bitchy, but almost…
So last weekend was fuckin’ wasted spent at Cameron Highlands… a workshop to improve research at the Department… yeah right… *wink*
All in all, I would say it was alright… enough said… I refuse to bitch about it!!! maybe I’ll post some pictures later… I wasn’t in charge of the camera so don’t expect anything worth looking at… all offence directed to the cameraman…
The week wasn’t to good too… many many losses…
The W click lost their hangout study place….
Let’s just say it’s become awfully silent after their gone… again enough said…
Let’s just start fresh… a new beginning…

About new beginnings
Fairuz: “… in two years…”
ShaZ: “… bring it on…” err… *looking all confused*

About Peace
“… I’ve found peace… it bothers me only because I let it… the choice is mine…”
“I choose PEACE!”

Bless…
~ShaZ

SpAsTiC...!!!

Hey boo,
I am not depressed anymore…
Acting all spastic really helps… went all silly one evening playing Frisbee and sitting on the road… heh…
This will be a short post so I hope the pictures are self explanatory…
Bottom line… me happy again!!!
Will be in Cameron Highlands for the weekend, so miss me okay…



The Frisbee team…



Me upside down…


Yes… we are on the road…

Mind the quality of the pictures… it was dusk…

Bless…
~ShaZ

ReaLiZaTioN... hUrTs...

“Don’t make someone a priority if that person makes you an option”

I saw this on a friend’s MSN Messenger personal message… the timing was for lack of a better word… impeccable… I’ve been feeling like a pile of shit these past few days that even baking three dozens of chocolate muffins didn’t help… sometimes I just can’t help but feel that I get attached to thing rather to hastily and interpret gestures rather too emotionally… a flaw in my character… a flaw that always leaves me depressed and lonely… a smart friend of mine told me “… the internet doesn’t capture your true feelings… people can misinterpret…” and I am getting the first hand taste of how bitter misinterpretation can be… I realized a long long time ago how selfish and self-centered I could be… how I try to make things about me… how I don’t listen… and how I give away my trust and love so eagerly… only to selfishly expect trust and love in return… how insincerity and stupidity have crept into my heart…

If I know all this… why do I still complain?

… because it hurts… it hurts like hell… I’ve always felt that some that smiles and cannot be sincere about it is a very unlucky person… and Lord knows I try to be sincere…
*sigh*

A list:
How Stupid I Can Be…
A simple ‘Hello’ on IM would make me so happy;
A ‘Hey’ on IM returned with just another ‘Hey’ hurts me;
.
.
.

… this is too painful… I’ll stop here…

Bless…
~ShaZ

mY FiRsT pOsT oN FooD!!!

Hello boo…
It’s almost a week since my last post… this can’t be good… I am getting lazy to post again… *sigh*
Life’s been rather hectic for me lately… even though I try my best to slack off every chance I get… and it’s quite often mind you… *wink* I’ve missed all my language classes this week… simply because I am occupied with work and I am too lazy too walk all the way to linguistics… it’s a pain I tell you… especially in the hot sun…
On Wednesday, I was really not in the mood for work… I guess some of my friends were on the same wavelength as well because a little after lunch we all ended up at MidValley… shoe shopping… well I wanted to get shoes anyway, but ended up with a nice mug from Starbucks…
Had a piece of cake at Strudels too… since everyone is into posting about food, I thought I’d give one go… this is my first picture of the cheese curl cake… recommended to all that can afford the calories and fat ass pigs who don’t give a damn like myself

It’s kinda late now… I’ll post more later…
Bless…
~ShaZ

i MiSs yOu...

Never expected this weekend to turn out quite the way it did… I left the paperwork I was supposed to take home at the office… and I can’t tell whether that was deliberate or an accident… part of me is just crying out for a break I guess… from everything proper and things that needed to be done… right things… responsibilities… commitments… I think I need just some time away from that… maybe I am just whining… I shouldn’t whine… not when there are others with issues more significant than mere discomforts and uncertainties… but my heart still cries out…
In the past two days I’ve been chatting with a fellow blogger… one whose blog I frequent… and I’ve had a few revelations… the most part of it was me listening to him… trying to grasp his frustration in a relationship he thinks unanswered… but I am not going to talk about that… I am going to talk about my feelings… this mixed emotions that I am getting… I guess this was bound to happen… that feeling of not progressing… being left behind... it started again after the reunion in Kajang… I was looking at everyone and I was sincerely happy for them… whilst I was bombarded with work at the office and missing classes I so wanted to attend… so what does this have to do with the other guy…?! Well… even though I appear to be helping him get along a cope with his frustrations, my soul is actually begging for his friendship… I know that doesn’t make sense and sounds so gay… but it’s not… sometimes we just kept the silence while I stare at the monitor… even the presence was enough for me… I felt that it helped ease my pain… I can’t call it loneliness because I am not alone… but it sure feels like it… I miss someone but I don’t know who… and it hurts… it really hurts… and I am confused…
And I am not crazy…
This hurts too much… and I don’t know what to say…
For all that is Holy, bless all…
~ShaZ

PiCs

looking forward to post some pictures....
abducted the camera from the office :P

sCaRy...

Hello boo…
It’s been a while eh?! Life’s just getting so hectic nowadays… it’s not fun to run around anymore… I used to run around for classes to attend… now I am running around for classes to attend, classes to teach, meetings to attend, deadlines to meet and even friends to meet… yeah, I have to steal time to meet friends…
Considering the lat update here was Thursday last week, the traffics seems to still be okay… by my standards where two or three readers that leaves comments is okay… anyways, most of the readership here comes from friends that I personally know, and a few that I have become quite fond of on the net… but that’s not what we’re going to talk about here today… today’s topic is somewhat more supernatural…
I have been targeting and telling myself that I’d get all my work done, and make sure the to-do-list in my office reduces to zero or at least to one or two… so I have been staying back every single day of the week… I stayed until 3:30 am on Monday, 10 pm on Tuesday, 8ish and 9ish for the rest of the week… but something happened on Thursday that is out of the ordinary…
I usually prefer not stay alone, but I was quite alright staying back this week because there were a few students studying in the discussion room across of my office… that day I saw some bags there so I assumed there’d be some studying there… so I called home and told them to pick me up at 9 pm…
So I was alone the whole time because I found out later the students didn’t turn up until about 10 that night… well... back to the story… I was preparing a course module presentation on Air Pollution Impacts on Health for MTech (masters of Technology) students for Prof. Nik that night… it was more quiet than usual… I noticed that much…
A little before 9 pm, my office phone rang… and I picked up… there was this squeaky sound and a whisper saying something like “muuuuuu waaakkkkk meendeeee tuuuuuu…” it was so scary… I couldn’t tell who it was… and I don’t think it’s anyone from my family because the person or thing had Terengganu accent… it was damn freaky… I hung up… then it rang again… this time there was just some tapping background noise… I was freaked… I was like “Hello…? Hello…?” and I hung up… well… not really supernatural yet… because it could have been some stupid ass who found out my telephone number trying to scare me… and had a Terengannu dialect (as do I mind you) … but personally, I had a bad feeling… like it wasn’t human… but I am not thinking too much about it… or I’ll be too scared to go to work… but no one in my family has my office number, and my friends don’t have that dialect… so that freaks me a little…
Oh well… that’s that…
Bless…
~ShaZ

woRk... wOoT?!...

Hey boo,
I’ve been up since a quarter to six… or rather Es siete menos cuarto por la mañana in españa… hehe just learnt that on Tuesday…
I have been like super duper busy this week… remember I said that work has a way of sneaking up on you and it will butfuck you to kingdom come if it catches up… well, now I am really sure of it… I’ve been attempting to get rid of all my outstanding assignments and it is one hell of a task. On Monday, I was working all day staying at the office until half past three in the morning. I was able to make some progress, getting started on the brochure design, finishing up the IPPP Research Bulletin, and manage to tidy up my office a little… Monday morning was totally wasted in UKM attending the wastewater seminar by Merck… I shouldn’t have gone… anyways, I managed to convince Dr. Ngoh to leave during lunch because I had French class at two… so we did… I arrived just on time… well, actually I was late but Mon Professeur was even tardier than I am *wink*… so Monday was action packed… well, bore-packed is more like it… no one wanted to come pick me up because it was like super late… so I got my ever faithful student Fairus to send me back…
I would’ve stayed longer on Monday if it weren’t for the presentations by the first year students that I have to attend… and assess… I think they were rather okay… *sigh* I have to assess the third year students’ presentation today… it’s a wonder how the lecturers go through this year after year… but it’s not that bad really, I mean it’s just a few days after all… anyways… I worked until half past ten or Es diez y media por la noche hehe… I know it’s irritating… will stop doing that… but practice make a better speaker… I couldn’t stay too late on Tuesday because I had an eight o’clock Separation tutorial on Wednesday… I was so tired… in fact I don’t quite remember what I did in class… I hoped the student didn’t notice the hangover-like tutor they had for the day… then it’s back to work…
Up till now, I can proudly say I’ve managed to clear off some of the ‘to do list’ on the bard in my office or at least change them to ‘follow up’ status… and that makes me happy…
So I guess I’d be able to go back to my usual blogging schedule… and not blog at weird times like 6 am anymore…
Bless all…
~ShaZ

aNoTheR dAy oF NoThiNgNeSS

Hey boo…
It’s one of those days again… all of a sudden someone or some greater power opens a gate and work pours on you… I’ve sat in front of the computer all day and I think I’ve made like 20% progress only… and no, it’s not because of the chats, and other things… in fact I am timing myself for this post... Just five minutes… for forgive the choppiness and the bore I put you through…
I finally managed to attend my German class… after missing so many classes the only thing I remembered is Guten Tag! And I think my lecturer knew that so she didn’t make me answer any questions at all… but I felt so loss… looking at the overall schedule it doesn’t seem like I’ve missed much as they’re only entering the word gender and the das, die and der… not that I know what those words mean… but I will catch up…
So I’ll try to post something tonight… maybe even add some German into it… hehehe… practicing a language makes a better speaker… hehehe…
So my five minutes is up…
Bless…
~ShaZ

FeeLiNg beTTeR

Hey boo,
I should tell you that I am feeling better. I am so glad that episode didn’t progress for the worse. I am still a little sore but at least I know I am getting better.
I was stuck at a workshop the whole day yesterday and then attended my Spanish class after missing classes for so long… so that practically covers the whole day… miserable huh?! Well, if you think it sounds miserable imagine how I must feel. Anyways, I think the workshop was alright all in all… the Danes and Dutch are well versed and seem to be competent enough on the topic of Project Oriented Problem Based Learning (POPBL). I should say there’s enough boredom to last you a century in case you were wondering.
Later I had a little chat with MiKeL via Skype… well, I you call four hours little… he’s revamping his blog-site… and I was lucky enough to see the progress of his design… better not say more…
Err… I remember I wanted to blog about something but I can’t remember what… I’ll stop here for now… until I remember…
Gosh this post is meaningless…
Bless…
~ShaZ

I MisS mY DiCk… sO I tOOk hEaD VIAGRA!

Hey boo,
How you been?! I’ve been like really sick… yeah, neck strain from the devil himself… I haven’t seen my dick in a week because of this fucking pain in my neck… and here’s my story… hehehe
So the past few weeks have been like super duper busy for me right?! Well, you can tell from the lack of posts on my boo boo here… I’ve had to stay at the hospital, and then there’s the hell week of workload that finally caught up with me and starting to butfuck me to kingdom comeand finally bit me in the ass… I’ve had overdue work listing from 1 – 10 on my whiteboard… I’ve missed two weeks worth of language classes, I’ve had to accompany students to factories, review some papers, start on another annual report… and the list goes on and on… and then there’s the 4 day workshop that I’ve had to attend on Thursday, Friday, today and tomorrow. I am so screwing today though… we’ll see if we have time to write about that later… so about missing my dick yeah…
Well, sometime last Monday I started to develop a sore in the back of my neck… as any other person, I assumed it was just a bad nights sleeping position… so I worked on day after day in front of my PC typing, reading and also on my desk… doing it more and more… I just wanted to get the work out of the way so I could start lab work in peace… but that’s not going to happen… oh and MikeL was getting addictive too, and that didn’t help… so it’s work + MikeL chat sessions + bunch of other nonsense now… and my neck just got worse and worse until Wednesday, I couldn’t get up from bed… I just couldn’t roll over… every move send this sharp pain on the left side of my neck… I was struggling for an hour in bed… until it was a little past 7 am when I finally yelled for my sister to yank me out of bed… my god… the pain was excruciating… I was tearing from just trying to roll on my side so my sister could pull my right arm… my left arm was hurting too… not so much, but tugging at it made my neck felt like someone was gnawing at it… I managed to swallow my screamed and got up with a long hiss… trying to swallow the pain as Tanti helped me up… oh well… I was already late for the industrial trip to Ajinomoto… so I got ready and that was that… the bus ride to Ajinomoto didn’t help much too, with my head swaying to from side to side every time the bus braked or hit a bump… it hurt like hell, but I managed to endure most of the pain and still managed to be my usual chirpy self… oh well…
The car ride back home later that day was even worse… my neck was just getting from worse to fucking worse I would say… so I called Dr. Ngoh and told her I wouldn’t be going to Petronas in Kuantan with the students on Thursday… I thought the bus ride would just worsen my neck and decided to go for the POPBL workshop bye MUCED… this was a four day workshop ending tomorrow… I think I mentioned it before… oh well…
So that was another day I guess… but that morning I took me longer to get out of bed… the pain was just getting worse and worse… I started to suspect that it’s more than the usual ‘salah tidur’ or bad posture or sleeping position…
I couldn’t turn my head or bend down… with regard to the title… Thursday was the fourth day of my missing the appearance of my dick… I just couldn’t bend down, my neck was not only sore; it was getting stiff too…

A note from Penis@Dick...

Dear Shaz,
I haven’t seen you in days… where have you been? I feel you are there and I felt you guiding me when I pee but I haven’t seen your face…. I miss you.
Yours,
Your Penis.

Okay… that was totally weird and SO uncalled for… but you get the meaning… it would have asked… but my neck is still sore so what can I say… the class got back a little before midnight from Kuantan though so I am so glad I didn’t go… I would’ve just died from the pain…
So Friday, it wasn’t as hard to get up, but the neck is still sore… I spend the whole day at MUCED for the workshop… it was quite a good workshop I would say… even though Professors can get a little funny at times… but that’s another story…
On Saturday and Sunday it just got worse and worse… Sunday being the worst day of all… I just couldn’t get my head straight… it was slanted to the left… a little at first and then getting so slanted it almost rested on my left shoulder… and boy did it hurt… I was cropping my head with left hand first and they started to get cramps from the fatigue… Some heavy hands I got… I took some painkillers then… but it didn’t help much… I was screaming at some points, and finally it was too much… I think I was starting to cry at one point… I mean I had to sit at an angle to reduce the pressure on my neck, there’s also the pain in my arms from the cropping, and my lower back was starting to hurt from the awkward position… then my mom called an old friend to help… he knew a bit of pressure points or something like that… he came after a short while, and I still kept my manhood and didn’t cry yet… he helped me off the bed and started his treatment… I was screaming and screaming… I guess the painkillers had kicked in because the pain was reducing…
To cut a long story short, I could say that he fixed me up a little… I could get up and my head was just a little slanted for the rest of the day… after dusk, my head started the I wanna slant to one side again… so I popped in a couple more painkillers… these were funny looking pills… well, not really funny… they were sort of diamond shaped and blue… not unlike VIAGRA… and the fact that it helped my head pop back up is funny… Head Viagra… hahaha… but the pain was no joke…
This morning, my neck is still sore… but some improvements… I guess… I got up without help and popped me one of those Viagras and I am still up till now… so I am not going to push myself today… just work a little on the computer and a little on the desk… I miss my dick after all… I haven’t seen it for a whole week now… hmmm *sigh*
Maybe I’ll answer penis’s note:

Dear Dick,
I have been unwell. In a way I am glad that you miss me, at least I know you care. I’ve been at your side all this while, and I could tell that you’ve kept your usual ‘happy times’ even without my presence.
Smiles,
~ME~

I know… I know… totally uncalled for… but I can’t help it…
Bless…
~ShaZ

I sPoKe To GoD

My first conversation with GOD and it Hanged… go figure…

Me: err hello?
God: Hello friend. What is your name?
Me: shazrin
God: Welcome to my chat room, shazrin.
Me: what should I call you?
God: My name is God.
Me: just God?
God: GOD rules.
Me: oh ok.
God: OK. Aw.
Me: so what are you doing tonight Mr God?
God: Dude! I am always chatting with people on the Internet.
Me: Really? Do you come across perverts when you chat?
God: For real. How old are you? I answer a lot of silly questions.
Me: err I am 25. aren’t you supposed to be all knowing?
God: What are the advantages to being 25 years old? All?
Me: yeah.. aren't you supposed to know everything that was, is and to be?
God: The ALICE chat robot can follow many things, like our discussion about . Try being more or less specific. I know very little about it. What kind of it do you like?
Me: what are you talking about?

At this point… GOD Hanged!!!
Try it!!! And tell me what he says okay…
http://www.titane.ca/concordia/dfar251/igod/main.html

TiReD aS HeLL...

Hey boo…
I should say that today has been one draining day indeed… started from home at a quarter to eight in the morning and it took me a whole 45 minutes just to get out of the residential area… traffic was for some reason impossible… I wonder if it is because everyone stayed up late doing God know what on Valentines… I had promised Dr. Ngoh that I’d be there by 8:30 am but I got there at 9:00… but heck, so did the busses that were taking us to Ajinomoto…
The trip was a long one I would say… we left Ajinomoto at 12:30… it was quite sunny for the first part of the day, and I was perspiring a generous amount… the plant was quite big and walking in the sun… well, let’s just say it didn’t help… I’ll post some photos if the students send me a copy from their cameras…
When I got back Ramang called to go to lunch… I told him we could pack lunch and eat in my office where it was fairly cooler… we did and before I could eat, Professor Ali called me to help him with something… immediately… so I left my lunch, and Ramang to eat alone in my room while I tend to the good professor… somewhere along the line Ramang called to tell me he had to leave so he locked my room on his way out… oh well, so much for eating lunch together… met Dr. Ngoh at the main office; she had to leave earlier from Ajinomoto due to prior engagements… we found out that there’d be a seminar at 3:30 (which is actually at 3:00pm) so we went to pack lunch for her so we could eat in the pantry… in the middle of lunch, Dr. Lee came to ask if we were going to the 3 o’clock seminar… so we rushed lunch and went to the seminar on process control and modeling… which I didn’t understand at all… by the time that was over it was a little after 4… a little of this and that and it was 7:30 and they were waiting to pick me up…
Bottom-line is I am SO tired!!!
Bless…
~ShaZ

aNoTheR dAy oF NoThiNgNeSS

Hey boo…
I was up early today… like 6:30 am early… I wasn’t really that sleepy so I decided to log on my PC and do my blog-rounds a little early… my blog is rather quiet as usual… just the same old friends who pity me and decide to drop by… well, there’s not much to read anyways so I don’t blame them…
Anyways, I finally saw MikeL online and we chatted for a while…
Wasn’t until 11 am when I was finally able to haul my ass to work… workload hasn’t increased as of today but I’m required to attend some workshops in the next few days. Ah well… it’s all good experience for me… I suppose.
As suggested by Chas I visited themexp.org and my desktop is looking mighty fine now… so thanx Chas…

Managed to translate some of the document I was assigned to translate… so I am happy…
Tomorrow I and Dr. Ngoh are accompanying some students for an industrial visit to Ajinomoto… will blog about that tomorrow if it goes well…
Oh, and I managed to chat with my buddy Luqman a little in the morning… he’s at Cambridge completing his MPhil and PhD… been bugging him to start a blog… but none so far…
Oh well… I guess this is all that I could post today…
Bless…
~ShaZ

OMG i KiSSeD a MaN...

Hey boo…
Today have been wasted; one thing followed the other and before I knew it the day is almost ending. I came in late today because my aunt from Malacca is visiting in the morning so I waited just to say hi to her… I got to the office a little after noon and then there was a preaching session which lasted for one hour. Then I rushed back to my room to print out the previous department minutes of meeting; apparently nobody received it when I sent out the emails on Friday. They got the message but somehow the attachment (which was the minutes) was missing. Oh well… then the meeting went on from 2:30 pm to 4:05 pm… back to my room… checked my email… damn… more work… oh well…
So that’s it… today!
Oh about the dream I had last night… hmmm… I really don’t know what to make of it… I guess a post on one of the blogs that I visit (RejWiLd… link in the right column) must have influenced it a little… basically I could say the dream was GAY!!! Okay… here is how it went…
I was in some sort of amusement park you see… and I was going on this ride… your are strapped to a little platform that just about fits you body and this is attached to a slingshot-like mechanism… when you are ready you’ll be launched up and you’ll bounce up and down… much like bungee jumping I would say… only this one is set on the lake and you are bouncing above the water… oh well… that’s what I remembered… then somehow or rather I met this guy… he was Chinese I think… early 20s I would say… I think he knew me very well in the dream… I couldn’t tell if I was actually me in the dream… oh… sometimes I am a different person… well, we were talking at some sort of bar by the lake… I was seated next to him… I don’t remember what we said though… but suddenly I was snuggling to him and putting my head on his right shoulder and putting my arms around his waist… err… maybe between the wait and the chest… I remember feeling a bit alarmed in the dream… like saying to myself “What the hell am I doing?!” but I could also feel that the me in the dream is getting comfortable and I think he loves the other guy… it’s freaky… it’s like I’m him… I feel everything he felt then and there… *shivers* we just sat there like that for a while… the other guy, the Chinese dude, fell asleep I think… he was comfortable too apparently… oh well… when we woke up we started to kiss… on the lips… not very much unlike this…

Photo from inmagine.com… my source for nice phtos!!!
I know what you’re thinking…. “Ewwwww” right?! But I tell you this… back there in my dream, it felt good because the dude is a terribly good kisser… errr… that’s sounds SOOOOOOO GAY… but it was a good kiss… and that freaks me… then we went home together… I think it was my house… I didn’t recognize the house though but I could tell it is the me in the dream’s place… it’s a nice place BTW *wink*… then we were getting comfortable again… we were on the bed and snuggling against each other and there was a little more smooching… gosh… It was really weird… after that I woke up… it was 6:45 am… baby niece wants milk… thank god… I don’t know what would’ve happened after that… if I felt everything the me in the dream felt… I might very well end up having a wet one *another shiver*… a gay wet dream… imagine that… I would really freak then…. :P *no offence to you gay dudes out there :P* it’s just not something I am used to…
It’s been distracting me… the thought that is… it’s just a dream after all so I won’t let it get to me…
Oh well… I need to get back to work… I will post again later…
Bless…
~ShaZ

TiMe fLiEs... aNd mY nEcK iS sOrE...

Hey boo…
I was telling myself the whole week… the next post I will not be whiny and bitchy… but I can’t help it… life’s been a bitch, what can I say?!
So on Thursday I was supposed to sit for my Spanish test… my neck was hurting like hell and so were my feet, so I ended up staying in my office marking tutorial papers and preparing for my Separations class on Friday. The class was supposed to be on Wednesday (8:00 to 10:00 am) but they shifted to Friday (9:00 – 10:00am), so being the person who prefers not to get up with people who sells vegetables at the market, I was all too agreeable. The drying chapter is not as heavy as the humidification and dehumidification… at least I think so… I had managed to go through all the tutorials on Thursday… most of the class did badly… when I say badly it’s like 1/10 and 2/10 bad… I tried to help but there wasn’t much I could work with… I think it’s the design project getting to them… maybe they weren’t prepared for the tutorial… oh well…
Friday wasn’t really that pleasant either… the class went on rather well though… I managed to go through all three questions with my students within the 1 hour… I am glad for that. Means no carry over questions for the next class… oh well, half of the class was gawking… but I am getting used to that now… as long as I say “OK?!” and don’t get any response, I assume everything IS OK!!! It’s their duty to come see me if they have problems…
At the mosque I saw Salam and Shahrom… Salam seems to have gained a little weight… but he looks happy and that’s all that matters… Shahrom didn’t know I have returned to UM… I told him it’s almost my sixth month here… ah well…
That afternoon managed a little progress in the IPPP Bulletin design… had recruited Ryan for some of the design… his work seem to be minimal and I’d probably have to re-edit… but I told him I’d pay so I will… Professor Nik didn’t seem to happy with the delay but content… she understands the situation… juggling work and my studies is not easy…
Yesterday and today… sleep day!!!!!
Tomorrow it’s back to work… *sigh*
The cover is usually my interest… anyways, I am no graphics expert… but I managed this… it’s a collage of Malaysia’s Prime minister themed Research Excellence… it’s the first draft… it will most likely be changed though…
Bless… will post soon.
~ShaZ

MiSSeS...

I've missed:

3 French classes
2 German classes
1 Spanish class

*sobs*

*screams*

febrile convulsion... mY fEw daYs iN HeLL...

"i am still not myself... so forgive the choppy and confusing post"
Hey boo…
The past few days have been a living hell for me… literally.
I have had to see people I love fall terribly ill, I have worn women’s batik sarung in public, and I haven’t had more than 3 hours of sleep every night.
Let me start from the beginning.
So on Friday I was working… although it seems like the only occupants in my block were Dr. Badrul and myself… and he left early I think… ah well… Junaidy was awful nice to keep me company though… Apparently his laboratory was dark because he was the only one working… so he decided to hang with me and check out some porn sites in my office… I left about 7ish… I was starving by the time I got home because I only had one curry-puff, coffee and two banana’s the whole day… can’t remember what I had for dinner now though… oh well…
The main thing is, my niece Puteri was developing a fever… Anna and Zul took her to see Baby (a doctor we are familiar with who works at a private clinic) and they came back with some cough syrup, flu medicine and some sort of pill you insert rectally if the baby gets too hot. Her temperature got very high, around midnight it was 40.4 degrees… I was worried but figured that if I panic things could only get worse… we called Anna and Zul back to Cheras to help take care of the baby… and to be with her just in case something happens and all…
Her temperature fluctuated up and down throughout the night… in the morning she was walking and playing… she appeared a little weak but she was still fooling around and all… her temperature had reduced so we didn’t expect what came next…
A little after 9 am she started to get a fit… I find out later that this is called febrile convulsion (fit)… I had read about it on the net the night before and told everyone that it’s the worse that could happen… no one was paying attention I think… anyways, Anna started to get panic and cry when her baby was having the fit… Mama was in the bathroom and she came out to start join the panic team… Zul had left early that morning to meet his friend about something… Tanti started to get panic after Zul shouting “…come back now!!! The baby is getting a seizure…!!!” Abah was still calm but worried I could tell… I was yelling at everyone to calm down of course… I told Abah to start the car and Tanti to get some of the baby’s stuff so we could take her to the hospital… All this happened in about 30 seconds…although it all seemed like an eternity… Puteri’s fit lasted about one minute… the fit stopped when I was carrying her in the elevator going to the car park… she became very limp and irritable… so Abah, Anna and myself were the ones to drive to the clinic which was about five minutes from the condo. We left Tanti with Mama because it would be good to have her tagging along with her heart condition and all…
So we arrived at the clinic and the Dr. was eating something when we entered but he saw us immediately… he told us to take the baby to the nearest hospital (HUKM) and get her to the ER immediately… he wrote something on a piece of paper and put it in an envelope for the MO at the Casualty Department of the Hospital… so we rushed out to get there… before we managed to get anywhere, Tanti called… she said Mama was having a heart attack … I told her not to panic and stay with Mama… it was hell… i was starting to panic too but I managed to stay calm… I told Abah to drive back and go check things up with Mama and called Tan… Tan is a close family friend and my business partner… Abah dropped me and Anna along with Puteri at the Lobby of Tan’s block and drove off… Tan was down in less than five minutes… and we drove like mad to HUKM…
All this time the “casualty” word was in my mind… that doesn’t look good at all… I thought to myself… but I kept quiet… my sister was quiet… I think she was in some sort of shock or something… we couldn’t wait for Zul and he didn’t know the way to HUKM so I told him to go back to the condo when called me… we’ll get him soon…
Later we found out he lost his way somewhere in Bangsar because he couldn’t think straight and didn’t know where he was driving… Tanti could’ve been more subtle… oh well; there are other more important things…
So I was doing all the registration nonsense at the ER HUKM and Anna went in with Puteri while Tan parked the car… I still hadn’t heard about Mama… by this time I was already screaming in my head… but I managed to keep my cool…
After about five minutes or so I heard the announcement over the PA “waris Puteri Teh sila masuk…” (will the family of Puteri Teh please enter…)
“Oh my God…” I was saying in my head… I didn’t know what to think and I walked in followed by Tan… Anna called me, and I was so relieved to her and Puteri in one section of the busy ER… Puteri was still okay…
The Dr. came a few seconds later with a small bucket of water and some gauze… she told us to sponge Puteri down to bring her temperature down… we did that… we were moved to the pediatrics ward a few minutes later… I think Puteri was stabilizing… Then Tanti called, she said Mama was asking about Puteri… Oh, I forgot about the part where I lied and told Abah to lie to Mama… saying we were still at the clinic and the doctor is just checking on Puteri and everything was fine… I followed my story… Tanti was still in the dark too… the last thing I needed then was Mama getting worse thinking about things that could happen to her first granddaughter… Mama was a little stable I found out but she couldn’t move her legs… this usually happens after one of her episodes and could stay that way for up to 2 weeks before she could walk again… so I followed my story; smoothly lying… for the better good…
Puteri slept most of time after that… and we sponged her… a little after 12 me and Tan left Anna with Puteri at HUKM to get Zul who was already at the condo waiting… on the way back Mama called, herself, asking about Puteri and I slowly explained what really happened… and that she has stabilized and the hospital will keep her for one day or two for observation… she wasn’t to convinced though… and she seemed to be okay with the truth…
I told Tan to come up and explain to Mama and convince her… since it was the truth and all… he did… and she was a little assured I think… but not fully convinced… there’s a story behind this actually…
When my Uncle, my mom’s older brother passed on a few years ago, my mother had a massive heart episode and she lost her memory temporarily… we didn’t want to worsen her condition and pretended everything was okay and nothing happened when she came about later… we told her she was afraid of a worm in the vegetable and she got an attack when she asked why she was sick… we couldn’t possibly tell her the bad news again… it was almost 2 weeks before she finally remembered and ask me about my Uncle… she remembered he had passed on… there wasn’t much that I could tell her because we never attended the funeral, the prayer sessions, or even mourned for his passing so Mama wouldn’t suspect… it was painful because he was very close with all of us… her recovery was slow but she recovered fully…
We went back to the hospital (me and Zul) together with an overnight bag for Anna and some of Puteri’s stuff…. Puteri seemed better…
Anna was crying everytime the baby coughed or cried… which was why I told her to go home later and let me stay with the baby at the hospital… with her condition, I don’t think she’d be able to be much help… and she did just recover from a fever herself…
So she left with Zul leaving me with the baby… I was in my cargo shorts and long-sleeve t-shirt. Close to midnight, when the ward was a little quiet I changed into the batik sarung because my shorts was starting to feel uncomfortable… Puteri was a little jumpy and she woke up a little after midnight I think… she was fussing in her cot so I carried her… she seemed weak but okay… she was also a little warm… I walked to a nurse sorting out some medicine and asked if Puteri seemed hot to her… she said yes… a few seconds later it came… in two huge gushes… Puteri threw up on me… I didn’t mind the throwing up, but I had checked the overnight bag earlier… there were only a t-shirt which Anna wore just now… an batik sarung which I am wearing now and managed to miss the main gush of puke… and a big jeans skirt… so there goes my shirt…
The nurse came to help of course… I gave her the baby and went to clean up… the shirt took too much puke and there was no way I would be able to wear it… I called Anna and decided not to ask her to send me a change of clothing afraid that Mama might be alarmed… I asked the nurse who handed me a purple hospital blouse… so I had to wear the batik sarung and a purple hospital blouse for the night… Didn’t sleep much that night…
The next morning Anna and Zul arrived late because the visiting hours weren’t until 12:30 and they could get into the hospital… and Zul was having diarrhea for some reason… so I decided to wear my cargo shorts with the purple blouse when everyone got up and the ward was alive with mothers, fathers, patients and interns… I looked stupid and some of the interns did give me the “What the hell is this patient doing in paeds?!”-look… but I had to keep a straight face… Puteri got up at 7:30 am and she pooped her diapers at about 8… so I decided to give her a bath… also to cool her down…
Without my noticing, cause I was too busy working the buckets of water, Puteri managed to smear my shorts with her poop… there goes my shorts… I finished bathing her and dressed her up… then I was back in my sarung… everyone looked and smiled… I guess I was quite a sight standing almost six feet tall with bright colored batik sarung and a purple patients blouse which was quite fitted… all this until after noon…
Finally Anna came and I left with Zul to get some sleep at home because the doctor told us they wanted Puteri to stay another day… so I was to stay with her again that night…
Had lunch… arrived home at 2… slept… Zul came to pick me up at 5:30… back at the hospital… sponged her until 4:30am because her fever came back around 7ish… my feet were killing me… slept until about 6 am… got up and cleaned Puteri, gave her medicine and made her milk… oh this time I was just tired but I was properly attired… so it wasn’t too bad… but my feet were killing me… Anna came early that day because I had to be at work… I arrived at the office around noon…
I wasn’t really stable… I was emotional and I was very very very tired…
Stayed until about 7 and went home… Puteri was discharged around 7ish as well…
I took care of her until about 2 am… then I couldn’t take it anymore and Abah and Mama (not yet very well, but she could walk…) had to take over… she had a fever last night too… so they sponged her all night…
I am still very tired… but I need to get some work done…
I will edit this later… but I have to stop now… need to get some work done… and prepare for my class tomorrow… I hate having to teach at 8 am… but it’s the only time the students agreed to… Professor Ali is not complaining so who am I to say anything….
Bless all of you then…
And Thank you FARAH for your support yesterday… you helped… a lot…
~ShaZ

F*cK... i aM piSSeD

I am SO FUCKING PISSED!!!!
I did my job... and on time too... Suddenly I am the slow one... the sloppy one...
The things is I had to smile... even though in my mind I am saying:
Well FUCK YOU!!! FUCK the whole damned thing... see if I FUCKING care... You FUCKED UP... NOT ME!!! so get the FUCK out of my face!!!

glad that is out of my system... but I am still PISSED!!!

aNNuaL rEpoRT...

I've just finished typing the Annual Report... So happy...

sTaYeD hOmE tHe wHoLe wEEk...

Hi…
I stayed home the whole week… apart from one trip to the hypermart for groceries I hadn’t stepped out of the house… not even to the pool… I wanted to just rest I guess. Uncle Mie and Abang Fairuz stayed over yesterday and the day before and they wanted to pretty much laze about as well. So I guess we weren’t such boring hosts because we were all lazing about… hehehe
So I was just on MikeL’s blog a moment ago… he was blogging about his new Nike… and I am thinking to myself… I need those… I need those bad… walking around in my boots have given me a bloody ache lately… on Mondays and Wednesdays I make one trip to the Linguistics Faculty for my language class and back… that makes 30 minutes of walking… and on Tuesdays and Thursdays I make two trips back and forth… that is another hour of walking… then there’s the walks to the main office… to my tutorial classes… meeting at the Main Faculty Building… gosh… I don’t think those boots were designed for someone who walked this much… I need proper walking shoes… My orange and yellow shoes don’t match my work attire… which is usually jeans and colored shirts… unless there’s a meeting… then I replace the jeans with proper slacks… and my other shoes… well they’re not for walking too… so I guess it wouldn’t go off too much if I wore Nike to work… so MikeL… you’ve inspired me… to buy shoes….!!!
I should post more pictures here… hmmm…
Bless…
~ShaZ

i goT a rAiSe?!... WeLL iLL bE....

Hey Boo,
After days of slavery… and not being able to blog or update myspace, friendster or anything; and after a whole day of zzzz’s yesterday… I’ve decided to tart reposting today… a new resolution… will not let work get in the way of my blog…
So what have happened since the 18th?! Frankly, so much have happened I don’t even remember!!!
Classes have been okay I would say… the tutorial I have to mark are still lying on the to do section of my filing cabinet… since too many tings have been occupying my desk space lately, I’ve decided to move my to-dos over the cabinet… well, it still lying there cursing me everyday… telling me what a lazy fat-ass I have been… oh wait, that’s just my imagination…
The trip to Alamanda Putrajaya with Anna was beneficial I guess… the Teddy’s Dream oil from Lovely Lace is heavenly… my room smells so good now… who gives a fuck even if it’s girly to have nice smelling rooms… I like it… and that’s how it should stay… smelling nice…
Oh, I should say I got a raise too… some revision on the allowance or something like that… so my pay has increased a few hundred… I dun get it… but I am not complaining… hehehe
Let’s see… what else can I write about…?! It’s times like these I envy MikeL and SmashPOP…. They’re never out of ideas… I guess some people are just better at expressing themselves… I never have been the one much for words… even back in school my essays used to be short and direct… on the other hand, I’ve been labeled the chatterbox by quite a few… I guess, I am more the talker and not the writer… but who gives a shit?!
I did get some pictures of me at Ikano the other day… will post that later… it’s on the other hard-disk.
Oh btw, the DVD writing project is going well… my hard-disk is freeing space, I can watch my movies and animes on my DVD player; and best of all I can start downloading again with my free space… yaay for me…
Slowly getting used to my new phone… don’t know why I got the N-Gage QD?! I haven’t tried the games… well not really… hehe… will get around to it…
Here it is…

I’ll write more soon…
Bless…
~ShaZ

Nocheinmal, bitte langsam!

Today was the usual ass shaping day where I have to work my ass walking back and forth to Linguistics Fac busy day for me… had classes from 2 to 7. In the morning I had some extra Separations 2 tutorial requested by my overenthusiastic students. I know I am busy and that time could be used to settle of some of the pending matters but I just can’t say no… I like teaching what can I say… the preparation is horrendous but I think its well worth it. Slept at 3 am yesterday trying to figure out to explain what wet bulb temperature is so they’d understand… but they didn’t… I guess you can’t win em’ all… but the class was okay overall I would say. I managed to go through question 2, which everyone was asking about within that one hour… and I also sorted out my name… Shazrin I told them to call me… was quite irritated to be called Tutor! Tutor!...

German was quite fun today… although I was caught off guard when the lecturer asked Wie alt sind Sie? I stared at her dumbfounded… it was almost a minute before I managed vierundzwanzig Jahre alt … but she wasn’t too pissed… considering I had been drilling Ich bin Shazrin. Ich bin vierundzwanzig Jahre alt. I was quite surprised that I’d freeze like that… but I think I can manage the Wie haißen Sie? Wo wohnen Sie?… oh well… she showed the class some corny German video… it was quite amusing… had the “happy family game” afterwards…

Spanish was rather bland today… just learning a few conjugations and stuff like that…

Dead tired by the time I get back…

Need rest…

Bless…

jUsT tOdAy.... feat. MY OffiCe

Hey boo…
Just got back from French class… and now sipping coffee in front of my PC… today’s lesson was rather cute, but then again French is always cute… it’s German that’s killing me… for now that is.
Oh well…
The day sure started with momentum, a momentum of shitloads of work that is… I told Abah to drop me off at the main office as usual… a quick peak at my pigeonhole and I see a bunch of papers and a fat brown envelope. As usual, I sighed like any spoilt fat ass lazy bitch who expects to be paid for nothing as usual… they were actually tutorial sheets Professor Ali left for me to mark. I’ll look at it later I thought because this Wednesday will be lecture class and not tutorial… meaning good ole’ Shaz will be in his room getting other crap off his back…
I finally managed to hook up the DVD writer to the PC at home over the weekend. Anna and Zul decided to sleep over because Mama won’t let them take Puteri home… she’s not fully recovered after all and all that moving might very well make her sick again. Oh well, that’d give me and Tanti some time off Puteri… not that we’re complaining… well, Tanti mostly because she’s the one with the baby all the time… anyways, we managed to get some of the animes into some DVDs meaning we’d be able to free some space on the HDD… more downloading in the future for sure…
The weekend was rather relaxing I would say… me at least… I tried to stay away from the PC (apart from writing files to DVDs) even though I was supposed to get some work done. I’ll do it during the week… I figured… so much for making up my mind eh?!
Anyways, I was the scribe on Friday for the department meeting… I didn’t blog about that now did I?! Well, basically I just sit and write every crap that everyone says and prepare the minutes later… great huh?! Hehehe thankfully the meeting didn’t last so long… maybe everyone was eager to leave because it was raining and it was after all a Friday afternoon. All the better for me. Started drafting the minutes after the meeting…
Since I’m a little dry of ideas… now would be a good time to post some pictures of my office my office… hehehe
This is my air-cond… took them months to get it installed…

This is my notice board… where I post all my junk… notice the DMC pictures... hehehe


This is my desk… where I… do stuff lah… :P

My trusty PC… where I sit and blog… and do useless stuff like that…

My filing cabinet…

My white board….


Oh ok… that was pointless…
Anyways, this is MY space… MY office… hehehe all mine 

bOriNggggg....

Hi boo…
Yesterday, or Thursday rather, was a really exhausting. The schedule is tight and required some 10 minutes brisk-walk 3 times back and forth bur somehow it was extra tiring…
My morning was interrupted by a student asking about the tutorial problems and I ended spending the whole morning going through the whole thing with him. I had barely checked my email. I can always tell when I am behind my work… there’d be piles of email in the Follow Up folder in Outlook. Well, to date there are over 20… I only managed to steal some time to drop by louyau.net for a quick read. I can’t remember now but I think he hadn’t updated yet. Then I was replying some smses and it was two o’clock before I got through all of em’. So it was the first marathon of the day, I had to walk to the Linguistics Faculty for my German class.
I arrived late and had to sit in the second row. Something I haven’t done in ages and for some reason I felt as if I am behind the class. I don’t know; German seems kind of difficult for now. Then I rushed back to my office hoping I could get some work done.
Just to give you a picture… I had bought an external DVD writer two weeks ago and it’s still in the bag. I’ve not had the time to unpack the damned thing. And I really wanted the DVD writer…
So I left for class leaving my PC, ac and lights on thinking I’d come back to sort some more things before I leave. After class, Abah was already waiting at Linguistics so I told him to stop by my office only to find the main door locked. So I had to leave the lights and other stuff on overnight. I hope no one complains.
I was extra tired I guess because I arrived home, changed, had dinner and went straight to bed. I think it was a little after 8.
Today wasn’t very productive as well, I dunno… maybe I am getting over sloppy and lazy… but I have made up my mind. I will get most of it done over the weekend.
So I am stopping here for now.
Bless all.
~ShaZ

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So what’s my freaking excuse this time for not blogging for the past twelve days or so?!... What could be more fucking important that bitching to the world about my daily miseries…?! Well, for starters Mama and Abah had to go to Labuan for the weekend so me, Puteri and Tanti were conveniently dumped at Anna’s place… I know were are both way over twenty and can take care of Puteri at home, but who’s going to drive me to work?! not being able to drive suddenly makes me feel like such a cripple
So, I would leave with Zul in the morning and Anna/Zul would pick me up later… Thursday was fine because Zul had to drop something off at SS2 so we took our sweet time, had breakfast and all before he dropped me off at my office… he liked morning drop-offs so he could check in late for work… I guess the morning traffic is really getting to him… oh well… that day went on a dull-ly as any day could get… oh… went crazy with the camera… will post some pictures of my office… *smiles*
On Friday, Zul had to be in on time so we had to park the car at Kelana Jaya station and take the LRT… so there I was, out with peasants early in the morning… taking the LRT no less…
Salam came over to check on his myspace and all sorts on my PC… and keep me company of course… I’d just go crazy alone… with all those work to do.
Anyways…
yaay for getting that job Salam…
So I thought I’d take him out for dinner or something… to celebrate and thank him for keeping me company all this while… oh, June had an interview at COMBICAT that day… so he tagged along too. They picked Secret Recipe at MidValley to go for dinner… June had some sort of kebab dish and Salam had the Thai fried rice… the food wasn’t really that good… but that’s not the story… you see it was raining and I had late lunch that day, and some stupid meeting… and you know what meeting translates to when you work in the government… yeah… say it with me… FOOD!!! so I wasn’t really that hungry at all… and I just ordered a cappuccino for myself… being that I love coffee and all…
So after a while my oversized cup with the froth and all came… I was all excited with anticipation… and I took a sip… *yucks* it was not hot… I hadn’t added the sugar to it yet but I don’t think it’d dissolve… the damned thing might as well be on ice… so I waved my bitch hands for the waiter…
Me: My coffee is not hot…
The waiter nodded and took my cup…
A while passed… Salam and June were almost through with their plates…
My coffee came back…
I took a sip… hoping… *yucks!!!* it’s still cold… so I took my cup and splashed it on his head…!!!
what the fuck is wrong with people…?! did they make coffee over lunch and line em’ up on the counter to save time when people order or what?! They might as well have stirred coffee into iced water… and I am not exaggerating…
I looked at Salam…
Me: Would I be a bitch I returned my cup again?!...
Salam: Yeah!!! You’d be a major bitch… *nodding*
Me: Oh who gives a damn…
I motioned for the waiter again…
Me: My coffee is cold… I returned it earlier… feel the cup… it’s not hot…
The waiter kept a straight face… while I showed him how the cup wasn’t even warm… he took my cup and left… I could only imagine the words that must be running through his brain…
Oh well…
After a while coffee came… I’ll be damned if I have to return this one too…
Me: You wait here… I want to make sure this is right this time…
The waiter had to force a smile while I sipped my coffee… finally… coffee…
It wasn’t good coffee… but at least it’s coffee…
Me: see… at least the cup is hot… thank you…
He left…
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So that was my adventure with coffee… so never screw with Shazrin’s coffee coz’ Shazrin will get mad!!!

Saturday and Sunday wasn’t much either… just the usual ole’ week over at Anna’s…
Did a little shopping at Alamanda Putrajaya… hmmm… that’s about it…

Monday… now there’s something… my first Separation 2 class with the students…
The class was rather big… 63 students… mostly in their third year.
I was five minutes late for my class so I made an entrance and was introduced by Professor Ali: … this is your very young and handsome tutor…
Sheesh…
I settled down a while and then Professor Ali handed me the class…
The first thing I taught my students was how to read the psychromatric chart…
There I was standing in front of 63 students armed with the trusty OHP, transparencies and marker… one hour really flies when you are teaching… didn’t get to cover much as it was their first time with the chart so some of em’ couldn’t really digest what I was ranting about in front…
But I felt good… I mean all this while I know I like it when people have to listen to me ramble and rant, but this time they actually have to pay attention as well… and it felt good… I was actually teaching… doing my bit for mankind…
My first step… to becoming Professor Shazrin… hehe nice ring to it…
So now the world would not be scarce of those who can decipher the psychromatric chart…
The rest of the day went by like lightning… I had so much to do… curse paper work… curse administrative work… curses…

Tuesday… slept till 4pm… ate… slept…

Today… continued with my class… today is actually an extra class because it’s a three credit subject but we’ve been loosing our Mondays to the holidays so we needed this…
I was a little more comfortable standing in the front… actually I was comfortable before… today I am just savoring it… topic of the day was still humidification and dehumidification… it’s nice to have 63 pair of eyes gawk at you for an hour while you go on and on… before I knew it, my one hour was up, my finger were black from the ink, and Dr Wan Ashri was already at the door… together with his Reaction Engineering class…
I had some students tail me to my office needing some clarification on some of the examples we solved in class… chit chatted with them for a while and it was almost noon…
Dr Kheireddine was breathing down my neck for his posters… I worked on it for a while… putting the pictures I took in place… converted the file to .pdf format and emailed him… 12:30 called Ramang for lunch…
1:00 went back to office to work on the posters again… 1:45 left for my French class…
The ten minute walk was hot and boring… yeah what else is new… :P
3:30 class was over… rushed to the main faculty building for the TechPos 06 committee meeting… more food… 4:45 meeting with Dr Kheireddine about the posters…
5:15 finally I get time to myself to read my emails…
A click of send/receive on my Outlook and the mails come pouring in…
Then more dreadful news came… Dept. Meeting… 13/1/2006… Scribe: Raja Shazrin…
Arrrgghhhh…. Damn it… oh well, got to do it sometime… can’t expect Dr Ngoh to do it all the time… oh well…
Checked myspace… chatted a bit… and that’s my day… my boring and dull day…
Oh well…
Am going to do my blog rounds now…
Oh… I’ve missed so much….
Bless all…
~ShaZ