Hey Boo,
I hadn’t realised until yesterday that Ramadhan was coming. These past few weeks has been so eventful and draining that I didn’t have time to think… Someone told me that lists are powerful tools that give you direction and focus… and I totally agree…
Things to look into this month!
1. Loosing some lbs…
need to loose lbs!
2. Getting used to the new office environment!
3. Making some money!
4. Telling some people they can go suck something! Some people (or this person in particular) sure meddles a lot… In everything. I hate it! Because of this I has to cut short my hangout in Kota Kinabalu! I absolutely hate it!
5. Eat less!
6. Stay sexy…! I was looking at myself in the mirror and can’t help but feel a bit sloppy lately… My clothes don’t fit well… and wrinkles and bulges in the wrong places… I hate it!
Bless…
~ShaZ~
I want to be sexy...
Hey Boo,
On marriage...
1. Marriage is about understanding each other... Which actually means taking as much insult and nagging you can take from your wife/husband everyday with the realisation... This is the person that I married and I have to live with this person for the rest of my life.
2. Marriage is about communication... Which actually means you listen and listen and listen to everything, from compliments to insults, and never ever reciprocate... The proper respond to everything is nodding and agreeing. From experience I can say... Women don't want to actually talk, nor do they want to listen... They actually just need an endorsement from you on what they actually already decided in their mind.
3. Marriage is about tolerance... Which actually means taking as much shit as you can and not utter a word to express discomfort or disagreement.
4. Marriage is about helping each other... Which actually means doing everything you are told to do and not whine about it... And... Listening to everything she has done for you again and again and again...
On my thesis...
5. Actually submitting the final hardbound copy gives me much relief. I'm happy that I can close this chapter of my life. If there is one thing that I learn from this six years of wasted time is sometimes you just have to do it! And it took me six years to learn this. Family and loved ones give support but contradicting-ly takes up all your time... I don't blame them though... I just had to get my urgents and importants right.
6. Sometimes... And I do mean sometimes, all it takes is a little magic. For this I an starting to believe in miracles!About Life...
7. I need to pick up the listing out things to do again. Things have been getting a little sloppy lately.
8. I need to geta book to write my ideas down. They come and if you don't kot them down you'll forget. I read somewhere that it's be good to just capture them as they come along.
About Debts...
9. You must never lose sight of what you're doing. Always be clear on your undertakings and commitments... Otherwise, before you know it you're fucked. Always plan an exit our recovery just in case things get bad. I find that it's also good to write things down. It'll give tipu a clearer picture. Not nicer mind you... Just clearer. Debts are sure one ugly sight to see.
10. Sometimes you need to sell your pride to setle things. I'll keep the details to myself though...
Bless...
ShaZ
Let’s try and capture the recent developments as promised…
1. Last Friday I managed to get Prof. Nik’s signature on my corrections, printed out the final copy of my thesis and sent it out for hard cover binding. At last I can almost put this chapter behind me now.
2. Stayed home on Saturday to rest because we were all unwell and wanted to avoid the traffic congestion due to the roadblocks.
3. I learnt that a life with lesser secrets is a life fareasier to manage. So I am progressively tabling out all my complications. Let people see and judge me for who I really am… Progressively being the key word here of course.
4. I learnt that sometimes you just have to do thing the long way to please certain people. When it comes to people that you so dearly love, there are never shortcuts. You just have to do your best to care… and caring is my specialty I guess…
5. I also have come to the conclusion that I have to reduce my weight… by a lot! So this will be the next project! Not so easy to accomplish seeing that I am always hungry by 11 am… but I will have to try…
6. I learn that when it comes to sex and flirting, you just have to keep things simple and honest. Let them call it as they see it… no pretences… believe me it’d spare both parties the awkwardness afterwards.
7. The easiest way to get hold of your life if you think it’s getting to messy and hectic is to write down what you need to do and tackle the list one item at a time. I have started this and trying to make it a habit. It really does make things easier.
8. Sexy is a must! I changed my desktop from sexy Kellan Lutz’s six pack abs to nature backgrounds and I really think that I am less productive… Conclusion… Sexy is a must!
9. Another good advice that I can give isto pay your bills on time. Don’t let it snowball into an unmanageable sums… I learnt this the hard way. Even if you can pay the whole sum, make it a point to pay a portion that you can afford to pay… as long as you pay… you’re alright.
10. Stay focused. Read the horoscopes or even talk philosophy with your boss… if it helps you stay focused on the basis of your life and what keeps you going… do it… do it every day! Make sure you know where you’re going to and where you want to end up.
In the meantime, enjoy this sexy! Adam Phebus…
I wish...
Bless…
~ShaZ~
Hi Boo,
There are so many happenings in the last 6 months it feels like forever since I last popped in here. Since I joined Dr. Aziz life’s getting a little better. Things are somewhat on track… who knew losing sight just for a moment could lead to so many problems.
There’s a lesson to be learnt here definitely…
Your choices will either get you places you want to be or the will fuck you up real nice!
I seek serenity!
Even though I could see a long and difficult life in the near future but at least I clearly see it. As my sister so correctly put “It’s time to get out of the skies and live in the real world on earth”. So that’s priority number one for me now.. Live on earth and live a real life!
I was thinking I’d start this again by capturing the things that matter to me for that particular day… So here goes…
Bless…
~ShaZ~
"have you ever seen a more beautiful guy?!"
~drool~
Hey Boo,
Just thought I'd write something in this ten minutes.
1. The awkward moment between NMS, AAR, RR and me today...
NMS comes in to see AAR about something and acts like I am not there. Goes on talking to AAR and finally...
NMS: I see you Shazrin and I am not ignoring you...
Me: Errrr. I might as well be invisible... *stupid face*
NMS: yeah you should have that Harry Potter cloak on maybe.
Me: *smirk* *start to laugh*
NMS: I seem to attract all these weird students... *shakes head like she's seem blasphemy*
AAR: Don't worry Raja, I am included in that list. You're not doing anything that I've not done with Prof Nik for years and years... *to the rescue*
*we all started laughing profusely like mad people*
The funny thing is I didn't know what I was laughing about. It wasn't funny at all. No sir. Not at all. Crazy!
2. My boss is nice when he wants to be. He just need support. Lots of it!
3. Some people go too far. I am really not sure what they're up to but they're really not being smart. And no playing their cards right.
4. I feel like I am not making my worth! I hope my boss doesn't feel the same!
5. My 3 page a day target is f*cked.
6. I will do my best to make today a productive day!
7. I am to keep a daily list!
8. The Damage Control and Mitigation Action Plan need to be drawn out! Quickly!
9. I am worried for my children!
10. I should be more thankful. I should do my best to make my worth!
Bless...
~ShaZ
Sent from my iPhone
If you don't take charge of your life now, you might never be able to again. It's important to act before things get out of hand.
1. Life has been super stressful lately. There's just too much catching up on me at the same time. I can't keep up.
2. In times of hardship... people who you least expects lends a helping hand. I was touched. There is kindness in this world after all. Thanks Babu and Kak Raz!
3. Work is hard, but I need this job!
4. No physical progress on my thesis. It'll have to go soon. I can't play cat and mouse with NMS forever.
Boss is back. Next time then.
Bless...
~ShaZ
Sent from my iPhone
Hey Boo,
"Life is hard... but it is still good"
I read this in an email forwarded to me and I though to myself... Sometimes I complain too much about my life.
So:
1.
If you don't go to the gym and eat like a pig... You'll get fat! It's simple really!
2.
If you see an opportunity, grab it... If you don't it might just pass you by...
3.
Sometimes you do things that don't make much sense. At times these are required... Sacrifices need to be made... in order to progress nothing is beneath you! Nothing!
4.
Interesting conversation:
AAR: You look good...
Me: How so?
AAR: You look more calm...
Me: You know what that is?... ACCEPTANCE... *laughs*
AAR: *laughs* Yeah... You don't look bitchy...
Me: Hurmmm... the bitchiness has long drained away... *sobs in my heart*
5.
A new opportunity may arise... I'll grab this one for sure as soon as it materializes!
6.
Bill need to be paid... No matter how your monetary situation is...
7.
Afternoon shifts on the eve of Eid sucks!
8.
Meeting close friends is good for you! They give support and cheer you up... No fancy word required. It is as simple and as beautiful as that!
9.
I was labelled as complex! Sometimes I just think that equates to just plain CRAZY!
10.
If you're poor... You cannot afford to he lazy!
Bless...
~ShaZ
Sent from my iPhone
Hey Boo,
Sometimes you need to put up a drama because people expect you to...
Sometimes... it's simply because you feel like throwing a fit...
Sometimes you put up a drama to... help?!
1. There are things that you can share with friends. There are things that you can share with your mother. There are things that you can share with your wife. There are things that you can share with your boss. And there are things that you can share on Twitter. But... there aren't many things that you can share with all! Different people will have different take on things. Not all will be forgiving. It's a fact!
2. Interesting conversation that I had with AAR:
Me: Is it okay if I flirted?!
AAR: Man or woman?
Me: Both.
AAR: Are you sleeping with them?
Me: Then it's not flirting. That's adultery.
AAR: True. Then it's okay!
Me: *smiles*
3. I am having all these reactions on twitter. Hurmmm.
4. I found out that my wife frequents my blog.
5. Change of Raya plans. Instead of Terengganu I am going back to my in-laws in Penang. Been so for the past three years. This is one of those I can't explain to all parties. Let it be. Say what you want. I am doing what I got to do.
6. I only bought two cargo shorts and two t-shirts for me in Bangkok. I'll just wear those and one of my old jeans for Raya.
7. I think I am most honest when I am with my iPhone. Hurmmm. I ought to just stop there!
8. I ought to find a job. But if I do I'd have to live with the monthly pay. How can I when we spend at least 6k a month. Who's going to give me 6k? No one that's who. But it's difficult. It is.
9. I finally got a new wallet. Courtesy of the Mrs. Thanks darls...
10. I feel so fat and bloated lately. After Raya I should make it a point to pickup where I left off at TF. I miss TF.
11. I had a can of Necafe's Mocha. The second can since... Things aren't always as bad as they seem. Only you make it as bad as it seems. Or even worse.
12. I am being vague for reasons in #1.
Bless...
~ShaZ
Sent from my iPhone
I missed the last few days of blogging.
1. Life seems a bit confusing after I came back from Bangkok. Perhaps 5 days out of sync. So many things out of control.
2. Bills to pay!!! Bills to pay!!!
3. I am slowly getting more addicted yo Twitter! Who's to say it's a bad thing. I am happy after all.
4. My thesis... Enough said. I really really really need to jumpstart the damned thing back into action.
5. Guilt: do I feel guilty? Hurmmm. I don't know. But I don't think so.
6. I am having such a headache. I need a break. Wasn't five days in Bangkok enough?! No it was not. Not at all!!!
Bless...
ShaZ
My only bother is that it doesn't really bother me. My remorse is that I don't feel remorse.
1. I always tell my friends: "Draw a line and never ever cross it". What if I didn't draw a line. What if I didn't want to draw a line. I am confused.
2. Bangkok has been really draining. We went on a shopping spree all over Bangkok... Whizzing from Pratunam Centre to MBK to Yaowarat to JatuJak and back. OMG. But it's quite an experience and I think we were quite objective and we didn't do bad at all. Not at all bad!
3. I wanted to spoil myself silly here. But in these 5 days I only managed one foot massage and one oil massage. Both of which I enjoyed. I'll miss Bangkok for this.
4. I am changed! Enough said.
