foRgiVe mE fOr I aM a BiTcH...

Hello Bloggy Boo... We are still together today... Today would have to be the day I say goodbye to my notebook... We are leaving for KL on Tuesday. Everything is packed and nicely listed. The movers will be here tomorrow morning to pick up the boxes and stuff... or rather this morning...
I have spent the last few hours tying boxes so they don’t come apart during transport... I have blisters on my hands because of that... anyways, I have just showered; gosh the tying and packing really did give me a workout; because I was sweating like a pig... I had missed my sauna and swimming routine today so I hope this makes up for some of it...
I’ve got some response from Amir... and I found Keshminder on his friends list... he still looks like when he was in school.. well, maybe a little better... I wonder what it’s like to meet some of my school friends again.. Kah Woh seems to have matured a little... how time has passed...
When we move back to KL I am sure going to miss certain parts of Penang... My 8 ½ feet deep pool, the big condominium, no traffic jams, waking up to see the sea everyday, my notebook and Gurney Drive... but I guess it’s for the better... considering how I’ve been bitchin’ about being lonely and all... sometimes I don’t understand what I want... there’s always something amiss... maybe it’s just because I am a bitch that’s hard to please... or maybe because I am just an unthankful bastard, or maybe I just want a better life... don’t we all...?! wtf are you saying?! Don’t be selfish you ungrateful bitch... You of all people should know that you have much to thank for and you are more fortunate than others... I guess... Forgive me... forgive me for being unthankful... forgive me for being a bitch... forgive me for not being content... forgive me for not trying harder to be happy... forgive me...
I think I am going to sleep now... I’ll try and have a short post later today okay... so sleep well Bloggy...


~ShaZ

bYe bYe mY LoVe...

Hello Bloggy Boo... I have bad news for you.. we have to be apart for a while.. I have to return my notebook and I have to transfer my account to KL.. that might take a while so be patient okay.. I guess I will miss you more than you miss me.. =(
So today’s blog will be the last post for this week I guess..
So much for sleeping early last night... I met Nelle online and we started to get creative with our blogs... we chatted for a while... and a while lasted until 3 am... as usual... I did a it of chatting with Tara too... who added me to his list... on Friendster... so that was yesterday’s news...
Today I woke up at 10ish as usual. Coffee was the first agenda of course.. wait.. actually we ran out of creamer and sugar too.. we ran out of onions, chicken, cucumber, garlic, bread, coconut milk and all sorts of other nonsense.. Mama wanted to make Nasi Lemak for breakfast (well.. brunch actually.. or more like lunch.. haha) so I had to go out to get some stuff.. Abah drove me and we made a quick stop at the bank for me to settle some Visa matters... :P lolz.. we went to Giants, as expected. Giants is the nearest supermarket to my place.. actually there’s Cold Storage at Gurney Plaza but parking there is always a bitch.. I headed for the tidbits counter as soon as I got in.. packed two types of asam... some sort of dried sweet-and-salty prune and some haw kor balls (dunno what it is but it tastes nice...) I continued to get other things.. wanted so much to get ice cream but my mind kept saying “Calories... calories... calories... wtf are you thinking..”... so I refrained.. when I got back I saw the maintenance staff three a bucket of chlorine into the pool.. Hmm... no swimming today.. I just hate it when the pool get chlorinated.. the water hurts my eyes and there’s that funky taste.. ah well.. tomorrow then... first thing I did when I got back... coffee!
Lunch was delicious... haven’t had home made Nasi Lemak for a while now... and I really enjoyed it... Rifqah would be jealous... I had second helping too... wtf screw the calories...
So the day went off like any other boring day.. I sms-ed Amy and Salam wishing them Happy Birthday.. Premjit still hasn’t called... as expected... and there’s still bits and stuff popping out to be packed... I fooled around with my notebook a little more... I will be parting with my baby after all... and there was a lot of activity on Friendster... Some of my school friends like Amir Muaz, Shahrin, Kah Woh (who apparently is called Kenny..) and UthayaKumaran has added me to their list... actually they accepted me but who cares.. and then all of a sudden a mail pops in from Prof Nik.. it was so nice... I especially like the was she put “...i guess both parties are busy and thus no mischief...” I hope she’s not being sarcastic because I have been holding back for close to a year now... but she’s nice... I quickly gave her a call because I know she’s at the office from the mail.. it took her sometime but she answered the call... I said hi and we did the usual “How are you?” shit... so then I told her I’ve been very busy and I am still interested and I am moving back to KL... so she tell me they
Ve set up a new pilot unit for rubber or something.. I guess that’d be fine but I am more familiar with palm oil... although I think it would be fun to be away from POME for now... anyways, I told her we’d meet up as soon as I get back to KL... so for now we’ll put a hold on that POME project...
In the afternoon I continued packing the little things that popped up.. adding two more boxes to the pile totaling to about twenty now... we really want to have as little things as possible... too much hassle...
So nothing much happened today... I guess tomorrow’s another day...
Till then.
~ShaZ



We'll have to be apart for a while my Love...
~ShaZ

my misery

Hello Bloggy Boo.. I know I promised an eventful day but it turns out today is just another uneventful and insignificant day.
With all the things packed and tucked away cooking and getting be seems to be more difficult everyday. We can’t even cook a decent meal properly. Anyways, it’s going to just be a few more days so I guess everyone is taking it rather well.. the mugs have to be washed constantly because we only left out four.. :P
It’s actually funny because I think today is especially uneventful.. I woke up close to 11 am.. as usual :P and had breakfast.. well it’s more like coffee.. straight black.. we ran out of creamer too apparently. I am not too fond of black coffee. Fooled around a little on my notebook and chatted with Shafiq for a while.
Went for prayers at 1 o’clock and it was the usual mosque on Kelawai Street.. The preach was about Hijrah.. as expected.. I can’t help but to think we are moving too. So I hope it’s going bring us good fortune. I was sitting in the front row as usual. Today I didn’t see any young men at the front row, usually there’s a few, and I appeared as a contrast with a fitting black top and tight black jeans amongst old men in sarongs mostly bearded. It doesn’t help that most were wearing turbans too :P. anyways, we were all in the house of God and we all had one purpose to be there so I just sat there.. regardless.. I don’t think anyone even noticed; anyone but me that is. After prayers crossing the street was a bitch.. usually there’s be a policeman manning the traffic to help us cross.. maybe because it’s a holiday..
At home lunch was already prepared.. I was really starting to miss Mama’s cooking because she seldom cooks nowadays; since Puteri was born. I miss us eating together too.. we have to take turns nowadays just in case she wakes up.. today however, she was conveniently asleep and Mama had cooked lunch.. Thank you God for this.. I enjoyed even though it wasn’t really a big feast because it was difficult to cook without proper utensils and not to mention the food itself.. but it was nice and I am really happy.
I did a bit of laundry too and putting away more clothes that we are not planning to wear these few days to save space in the bag.. the car can only take so much after all..
In the evening I got a good sauna and swim session.. even though I was in the sauna alone I enjoyed it nonetheless.. actually I was happy that it was empty because I had a lot on my mind and needed the solitary time to think. Tanti joined me for the swim afterwards.
Oh I forgot to mention I met Premjit online.. She’s in KL for the CNY apparently.. I miss her so much.. she seems to be doing okay in Bintulu.. She promised to call but I am not expecting much. She forgets all the time.
So there.. Another day has passed.. Without meaning.. Miserable..
~ShaZ

sLeEpY.... ZzZzZzzzz

Hey Bloggy Boo.. I don’t think I’d be able to write much tonight because I feel so sleepy.. since I’ve missed yesterday let’s start from where we left of.. let’s see..

Wed 9th February 2004
Nathan had sms-ed the day before saying he’d come over to Penang for the CNY. At fist I though it’d be uncomfortable for him what with our house looking like the tsunami had hit it.. But we managed to get most of the things that were lying around into respective boxes. So it wasn’t too embarrassing to receive a guest. I had stacked the boxes near the hallway nicely separating them by which ones that are going with the movers and ones that we are taking with us in the car. Oh gosh I am starting on the packing talk again. Enough about that..

I woke up at about 10 am when Puteri was fussing to be carried around.. yeah we’ve spoilt her that way.. :P anyways I kept quiet and forced myself to stay in bed. I got up almost half past noon. My stomach was beginning to give me the signals.. “Get up BITCH... I am hungry...” so I got up and had coffee. It’s really a norm now.. I just got to have coffee in the morning or I’ll be phased out the whole day. Even back in uni..

I called Nathan to confirm whether he was coming and he told me he’d be coming in the afternoon (I think he said 6 pm..) so there was plenty of time. I was worried that I’d miss his call and he’d be waiting at the jetty.. so all was alright. After we picked up Nathan we went to Tesco to get some stuff for dinner because most of the things have already been packed so we need to make something easy to eat. I decided on roasted chicken; fries; and some coleslaw.. I cooked the chicken and Tanti made the side dishes while Mama took care of Puteri.

Nathan, Tanti and I was on Neopets until well after 3 am playing games to accumulate our neopoints.. Tanti retired sometime after 3 and I and Nathan went on till close to 5 am..

Thurs 10th February 2005
I got up at 9 am this morning; <4 hours sleep.. we had coffee again for breakfast; Abah was nice enough to have mugs ready by the we got up. So coffee was the first agenday of the day. We had sausages; fries and toast for breakfast. Then we continued to glue ou faces to the PC playing with our Neopets again. I felt better cause it was really longing to meet up with some of my friends. Ah well..

So there’s not much that happened today.. we dropped Nathan off at the jetty at 5:30 pm so he could catch the 6 o’clock to Kuala Ketil.

Came back and continued on with Neopets.. gosh it’s addictive..

It’s 1 am now and I haven’t had dinner. I think I am going to make myself some sandwiches..

Hopefully some interesting things will happen for me to blog about tomorrow.

~ShaZ

mY LiFe iS sO DuLL

I find this fun....

1. Who did you last go out with?
mY FaMiLy

3. What is the first name on your missed,
received and dialled calls?
missed = NaThAn
received = mE SiStEr AnnA
dialled = mE BuSiNeSs PaRdNeR TaN

4. What do u want to receive on your birthday?
O2 XDA II

5. What do u want to receive on valentines
day?
Hmm... A BiG BoX oF ChOcOlAtEs... that’s or *ahems...

6. Reach your hand out to the right. What do
you touch?
ThE YeLlOw PaGeS... PuLaU PiNaNg Ed.

7. What do you plan to do for the next
holidays?
gO FoR a LoNg QuIeT VaCaTiOn..

8. What time did you sleep last night?
4 am

9. What are you going to do 5 hours later?
I wAs oN mY nOteBooK... ChaTtiNg I tHiNk

10. Is there anyone you're thinking of now?
NoT ReAlLy... I wAs ThiNkiNg aBouT KaMaL fOr a WhIle EaRliEr.

11. What was the last thing you touched
before the computer?
mY CoFfEe...

12. When was the last time you browsed
through the Bible?
erm...

13. What can you hear besides the
computer?
SoMe FiReCrAcKeRs and A MoToRbIkE

14. Why did you answer this?
NuThInGT BeTtEr tO dO

15. Name a few people you saw yesterday
besides the people at home?
mY lAwYeR rAnJiT; JiMmY tHe GuY wHo hAs BeEn TrYiNg tO sElL mE wAtEr fIlTeRs.

16. When was the last time you opened your
school textbooks?
tWo MonThs aGo

17. Do you agree to the saying "Forgive is to
forget"?
YeS

18. When, where was the last time tears
started to roll down your cheek? Why?
a FeW WeEks aGo... wAs WaTcHinG sOme MaLaY DraMa..

19. What makes you happy?
MoNeY...

20. What makes you sad?
BeInG BrOkE...

21. What are your favorite books?
tHe PrOdIgAl DaUghThEr bY J. ArChEr.

22. What would you like to have right at this
very moment
tEn MiLion RinGgit.

23. Who will you turn to if you have a huge
problem that not all your friends know about?
NoOnE... My BloG...

24. What's your favorite song at the moment?
ThIs LoVe (Maroon 5)

25. What was the last song that kept ringing
on
ThaNk YoU by HoMe MaDe KaZoKu

26. What was the best event that happened
last year?
mY GrAduAtIoN...

27. Where are you planning to go for holiday
and with who?
EuRoPe... WiTh PreMjIt and AmY

28. Lastly, what do you like about yourself?
I HaTe MySelF...

AnOtHeR DaY SpEnT aT HoMe... ArrGhHhH...

Hello Bloggy.. Let me start by saying today we’ve completed most of our packing. Amen!!!
**It’s Tanti’s turn for coffee tonight.. Coffee taste so much better when some else makes them.. *sip Yum..**
I woke up at 10:30ish this morning... as usual (I know.. what a bum..) and played a little with Puteri and we dozed off a little more together :P (I know.. what an ass...!!!) There’s just not much to do because we’ve got most of the things done. I am supposed to go through the draft that Ranjit gave yesterday. Ah well, later I though. Had two oranges for breakfast, and then had some coffee. Lazed a bit more and fooled around with my notebook until around lunchtime. I had the leftover lamb chops with fires for lunch. The movers came by and I signed a PD cheque for their payment. He was fussing about me being a rich son; ‘coz I had a checking account or something like that. I just smiled and handed him the cheque quickly. He and his wife (yeah, he had her along..) were happy with the two small rock sculpture thing that Mama gave to them It was far too heavy to bring back. I thought it was ugly too. They seemed all too happy with it. The brought another bag of mandarins for us. Really big ones. Yum..
**Aina just signed in.. she is a nice gal that one.. Recommended her to start a blog**
Now where was I?.. Oh ya.. Chatted a bit with Kamal and Agnes; Agnes was telling me about her Langkawi trip and showing me some photos.. She’s gained some weight but still cute. I was telling Kamal that I’ve been feeling down lately and I don’t know why. I really wanted him to cheer me up.. but knowing him.. I didn’t expect too much.. he’s been a good friend all this time I’ve known him. Always tries his best to help. I made him promise to take me out when I get back to KL.. I need to go out more.. he told me he is getting tired of his current job and feel like getting a real one soon. I’m sure he’ll land one in no time. He’s a good kid that one. So we chatted for a while and he thought I was depressed because of her but I told him no. I didn’t feel like talking about her; not at all. He understood and we talked about other stuff. I was glued to the notebook until about 5:00 pm; when all my online friends had to leave. Amy was on too. She was telling me about her boss and Tehran or something like that. Zool called about the computers.. Looks like I have to part with my beloved notebook.
After that I started to pack stuff again and by 7ish I was all done. Wanted to go down for a swim but ended up eating too much junk food and sat with Mama, Abah and Tanti talking about Tok Ani; we have these serious conversations often. About life and one’s perception and approach in life. Abah is more laid back now; more accepting of God’s will you can say I guess. He is still a tad too grumpy still though. lolz. I guess all dads are. I was still chomping on more mandarins; I think I had like ten today :P. Anyways, we managed to get the packing over with. I ran out of tape though so the boxes are still unsealed; but we managed to get all the critical stuff in the boxes. It’s just the things that we still need and the pillows and bedding left to pack; also what few clothes we left for these few days.. Nathan called at 6 and was telling me about his job as supervisor.. He has 2 assistants.. Cool.. He wants to come over to Penang tomorrow. All welcome.. At least I won’t be too bored tomorrow. We still need to figure out how to pack pillow though. We should get a big box I think.. They’re just so bulky. I have 6 pillows to myself and I am not parting with any of them. You can never have too many.. Especially feather down ones; all mine mine mine... :P
I had to make dinner.. Coz Puteri was bitchin’ and Mama had to take care of her.. I am used to cooking.. Had dinner and was chatting with Lenny for a while. He was telling me that he needed a new phone and his ‘financier’ is getting one for him.. lucky bloke..
Now I am glued to my notebook again (spending what little time I have left with it.. ) blogging and chatting with Simon. He is telling me not to remind him of oranges.. They dun have oranges in London at this time of year apparently.. Oh well, I am going to listen to some more light music and maybe a bit of Maroon 5 as well. Will see you tomorrow.
God Bless..
~Shaz


When you cant tell what is disturbing you.. confusion and sorrow overwhelms you.. I’ll feel better after a good night’s sleep..
~ShaZ

Thank You... by Home Made Kazoku

This is a really cool song... It's in Japanese but I found the translation on someone's blog and I can so relate to this... I dedicate this to all those who have helped me... I'll remember all of you...

To all the people who have supported me..
This heartfelt rhapsody goes out to you
To send you my feelings of appreciation
Thank you...I really thank you
Wherever you may be,
I'm grateful for you

When the town was dyed red with twilight,
I found myself casually strolling the streets
As evening comes, more people come and go,
And I stopped for a moment
My cell phone went off, as though to fill
This gap that opened up in my heart
You are not alone, for you see
We all will support one another...

One day now
When I was feeling troubled,
And frightened of the future
You were there, though you said nothing
You softly reached out your hand to me
My sadness diminished to one-half
My happiness swelled twice over
If our places were reversed,
I promise that I will come rushing to your side

Far away, far away, no matter how far you are
Within the time that flows by
The memories of the times we spent together
Will never ever disappear
I won't cry; to my family, and girlfriend
And all the people I've come to know
Thank you...because of you
I can step out with confidence

Nobody can go on living just on their own
We each take care of one another
And talk it over when we misunderstand each other
I wanna throw my head back and laugh together
And yet why do we sometimes insult each other
And hurt one another
I love you so much it's almost silly
It's a little embarrassing, but I really mean it

Maybe everyone's unusually shy
And face-to-face, it's so hard
To say anything
You actually wanna say something
But something gets in the way, and you play it off
On occasion we should let it all out
For in words there resides a strange power
It's so easy, I'll start it off
We can do it

I will be there
Just forever
Just like you were there for me

~ShaZ

AnOtHeR dAy iN PeNanG... and counting down...

Hey Blog.. I am very tired now so I don’t imagine that I can write much. Sorry about yesterday.. I was preoccupied the whole day and couldn’t write anything. Let’s see now.. Yesterday was basically still packing.. Well we got most of the stuff in the boxes.. hey wait a minute.. It’s just the 7th.. Well actually the 8th; but I did write yesterday. Well, actually after blogging I continued packing with Tanti. It just seemed like there’s not much time to do it later. Anyways, I managed to pack up the kitchen into four large boxes.. I know, cool. Well, actually not the whole kitchen; we left out four of everything we need like plates, flatware, mugs, the lot for us to use in the meantime. There’s also a few pots and pans for us to get by. It’s not really easy; and you wonder the things that accumulate after some time; enough for a sweat by the time you are done. I went through two rolls of tape to pack them up nicely. Actually I am quite proud of my work.. it was Tanti’s turn to make coffee so she made coffee and Mama came out sometime at 2 am to look. Oh, we have this deal where we take turns making the drink (coffee; milo; cocoa; tea; but coffee is a favorite..) By the time we were through it was like 4:30 am. I was really beat. The house looked like it was swept by the Tsunami.. newspapers and plastic; packing sponge; boxes were everywhere. I had nicely stacked the packed boxes in one corner and the things we are going to be taking with us in another; well, what little I could (my micro Hi-Fi, my PS, the VCR, VCD player, speakers, printers.. the rest we still need... :P) the list of what we are taking with us was numbered to 20. There’s no way the car will take all of that. Ah well.. We’ll have to risk t and pack some more of the things. Ok enough about packing.
I got up at 10; Abah was waking Tanti up because the baby was crying and he wanted her to change the diapers. I tried my best to keep my eyes closed; wanted to sleep a bit more. I was lying around a bit more then had to get up because Mama came out and wanted us to finish packing and get other stuff done. I needed to go to the bank to settle some credit card bill (which is dangerously still in the five digit range.. Gosh..) and need to go pay for the car. I got up and took a shower; and got ready to get up. By the time I was done Abah was already downstairs trying out folding the backseat to see how much space we could make.. Apparently a lot.. I signed the two cheques at home because I didn’t want to waste time at the bank; made sure I wrote the account numbers at the reverse side; and left. The bank was awfully crowded; even the road was jammed. I had to jump out of the car on the road because some lady in a Mercedes Benz didn’t know where to chuck that car of hers (Malaysian have the habit of trying to park their cars nearest possible to their destination. Regardless of law and being a nuisance to others.. I am surprised she didn’t drive her damned car into the bank.. sheesh.) I walked the few meters and Abah said he’d wait around. I went to get the number from one bank and found that I was 30 numbers behind. I went to the bank next door and settled my credit card matters first. The officers are really nice (Maybank Pulau Tikus... long live...!), they approached me as soon as I stepped in; they know me by name. They asked why I haven’t been around and I explained how I’ve been in KL and all. I went to see Chai straight away; she’s the officer who usually handles my stuff; well, actually I went to the other lady but she came all the way and told me to go to her table.. she’s a nice one that Chai. We had some small talk about the new year and all; and the usual “How’s business..” talk. She made extra copies for all the documents for me and I was off. I went next door again; still 10 behind. I stood there and watched that red display went ding every five minutes or so.. sheesh I thought when the express cheque counter caught my eye. Hehehe.. I was fed up with the waiting and went there and played stupid. I handed the guy the two cheques and he said it might take a while because I was supposed to wait.. I played the “Oh really..?!” and he processed me right away. I know I am mean; but hey, I did stand there for more then five minutes. I walked out and Abah was waiting patiently across the street. I really should get a drivers license; he’s been very patient driving me around; but hey, he’s not complaining. Tanti called earlier to remind me to get cooking oil and look for more boxes. I forgot all about it and by the time I remembered we were already at home. We’ll go again later; Abah said. I went up; it was well after noon then. Tanti had made burger but I had no appetite. I had cold water to drink and told myself I’d eat later. Mama reminded me we have a meeting with the lawyer; Ranjit at 3:00. I was rocking Puteri on the bouncer while I was checking my email. Mama was eating. I dozed off for like 2o minutes; gosh I wanted to sleep more but the baby was fussing every time I stopped rocking the damned thing. Mama was not ready by 2:45 as well and she called Ranjit to inform him we might be late; he said to come at 4:00 because the documents weren’t ready anyways. So I got a little more time. So Ranjit finally finished all the drafts; we had the usual business chit chat and left. We took the baby along for a spin as well, and drove around. Gorgetown was all jammed with people and cars. They must be shopping for the Chinese New Year. The baby went pooped in the car and was fussing so I and Tanti changed her on the move in the backseat. We really are becoming good sitter. Mama wanted to eat lamb chops because it was Tanti’s birthday and all. We stopped by Giants and bought the stuff we needed to cook. I went out back afterwards and asked if I could take some boxes.. The Manager was so helpful. He even climbed in the big bin to choose some nice big ones for me. His worker even came out and commented about him being in there. If I were a woman I could swear this man was hitting on me. Ah well, my luck to run into a nice helpful guy. I had ice cream on the way back.
We got back and Mama seasoned the chops; Tanti made coleslaw and French fries. I was chatting wit Pradeep for a while then left for sauna. Got 15 minutes and went for the usual swim. Tanti joined me. Jimmy was there and was trying to get me to his demos on the filters again. I came up; changed; prayed and stated on the chops (I made a deal with Mama, she season the thing and I’d cook it. Better than having to do both :P). We realised then we didn’t have enough knives because we packed them in last night. We had two sets so Mama and Abah ate first while I and Tanti stayed with the baby. We had dinner later and I couldn’t finish my two pieces. I chuck what I couldn’t finish in the fridge; I’ll finish them tomorrow. Pradeep logged on again at 11:30 and we continued until about 2:00.. I think. He was telling me to chill about her. He read my Blog. I m still not over her but I am coping. What with work and packing. I’ll get over it. Chatted with Aina for a bit too.
Now here I am again.. sheesh it’s almost 4 am again. Ah well, I am off to bed then. Ciao for now.
~ShaZ


ThIs rEaLlY CoNnEcTs tO tHe wAy I aM FeLliNg tOdAy...
~ShaZ

PaCkiNg PaCkiNg.................. *sigh

Hello Bloggy Boo. Yet another day has passed... boy I sound like some old novel... nothing much happened today. I spent most of the time packing up my clothes into boxes... well, actually it’s more like one box. There’s actually a lot more to pack up. When you really look at it; it’s the small stuff that’s really the fuss. They are either too fragile to be put into a box; to big to be put into a box. So we are listing down the items we are going take with us in the car and the items we are sending back via the movers. Hmm... the computers and other breakable stuff like vases Mama is insisting we take with us; so basically everything else will be packed and sent back. Time really does fly; I just realised it’s just a few days more before we actually move; and Tanti’s birthday is the day after tomorrow. I guess the gift will have to wait. Hmm... I hope she doesn’t mind. We’ll make it up to her.
*Making myself instant noodle now... Yum... Tesco really sells em’ cheap; just RM1.60 for packs of five... better go check on it*
I saw Suhaimi and his red Satria again today. He had a guy friend and they had the car parked up front; the hood was up and the other guy had his top of and peering into the engine of the car. I guess there must be something wrong with it. Suhaimi did tell me the car was in the workshop yesterday. He sms-ed me; he does that sometimes, sounding nice and cute, and asking for a job. He said he didn’t mind even if there was an opening for a driver at my place. I am really up to my head now with my own problems and I can’t think about his just yet... maybe later... I promise.
Mama is as usual giving herself a headache about moving; to her everything seemed to be so difficult; I guess she’s just thinking about us.
Puteri was nice today though. She didn’t cry too much. I found out that rocking the bouncer back and forth puts her to sleep; plus it gives me the workout I need... just like in TV Media... ^_^
*Noodle too hot to eat....*
I went for a swim again today. It is hard to keep to a program, that’s why I am trying my best not to skip my swimming session even for a day... Sauna was okay; although I only stayed in for 17 minutes because Haido-san had the thing so hot, it was like 150 degrees in there... after that was my swim. The pool had some crowd; the was two Chinese chicks; one teaching the other how to swim (although to me they both seem to be in the dark...) and two younger Chinese kids fooling around. I didn’t give to much attention to them because there are a lot of things going in my mind.
I am still not over her ^_^ turning me down; there’s a lot of work; packing; and Ranjit is so damned slow... He better get things done by Monday...
Nawal is in Kedah. Her cousin’s wedding should be today or was it tomorrow... Erm.. ah well... I sms-ed her... she keeps logging off without warning when we chat so I say what’s up... she gave some lame excuse about her computer being broken. Ah well... she asked whether I’d be at the wedding... well of course not, I wasn’t invited. I invited her to come over to Penang if she’s free... it would be nice to meet up. We’ll se how that goes.
I think that’s all for tonight.
~ShaZ

Is ThaT MuFFinS I SmeLL?! Yess....

Hey Blogy Boo… there’s not much to write today… I did start a little on the packing. I packed most of the stationery and book in my room and put it into a box. I just realized how much stationery I have. There’s like two dozen erasers, a few packets of pens, a few boxes of staples; etc etc. I am glad that is out of the way. I don’t imagine there ‘that’ much more to pack. It’ just a few more stuff and my clothes. I don’t have that much to begin with.
Mama has been bugging me to make her muffins. I finally made a batch today. Chocolate with chocolate chips and sultanas; it turned out really nice. Hmmm… I have made a lot of those already. I can make muffins without even looking at the recipe nowadays. I can even make my own recipe when it comes to muffins. Although there was that one instant with the chicken muffin; that didn’t turn out too well and ended up in the trash.


MuFFiN: I LiKe MaKiNg MuFFiNs oN mY fReE TiMe
~ShaZ

I managed to get some of the agreements settled though. I finally sent it to Tan to review. I hope he’ll get back to me soon. I didn’t see to many people online too today… Hmmm,,, everyone must be preparing for the holidays.
Time sure does move without us noticing at times. I went for a swim again today. I wanted to go for sauna again but Mama says that it can’t be good to do it everyday. Ah well, a swim should be enough for today.
~ShaZ

mY LiFe

When you realize that you can do more... You'll feel that you haven't done enough...


LiFe 

GoSh... ReJEcTioN iS PaiNfuL....

Hello Bloggy Boo…. Hehehe… That’s cute… Hmm I was just so beat last night I didn’t have the energy to update my blog. I spent the whole day doing nothing… Nothing just wears you down really… :-P Actually, I spent the day reviewing some agreements (yeah I know… still….) and thinking up a few clauses to add… you can never be to careful in this business. Our lawyer; Ranjit was supposed to send us three more agreements for me to review but maybe he’s busy with court. I hope he gets them done today though. its really important. Riza called a few times asking me to send over some documents to him… they aren’t ready yet so I made some lame excuses to brush him off… gosh he’s persistent.
The Bank Manager from Hong Kong replied my e-mail… I think he thinks that I am Hamid… Oh well, I just forwarded the e-mail to Hamid. Hopefully that deal will go through quickly. Lord knows it’s been delayed far too long. Many people, myself included have put too much effort into that. If the funding are finally available, I hope it will take off. Enough about business then…
Hmmm… Yesterday, I told the girl I like that I like her… well, actually I told her a long time ago, but she just told me she’s available again so I sort of just suggested that we …. Hmmm… how should I put it… give it a try… she doesn’t seem too responsive to the suggestion though. I should understand that. I know her well after all. She said it’s not fair to make me the rebound guy. Although I wouldn’t have minded one little bit. She’s so beautiful. She can be bitchy at times… I give you that much :-P… but that’s what I like about her. I know that she may have some bad qualities in her that says “Stay away…” but I just cant help how I feel. She told me that I am too nice for her and she doesn’t want to hurt me but I think that I am just not good enough for her I guess. Ah well, I’ll wait it out… I guess she needs some time to recuperate from her last relationship. She also told me that she’s been in many so I should know to stay away from her. I do know that, but still I am stupid and stubborn. Rejection is painful though. I should tell you guys out there. We are still close though, at least that’s what I think, and I hope we stay that way. She told me not to wait even. It’s not like I got much of a choice. I am just a hopeless guy when it comes to relationships. I’ve never been in one…. Being 24 it must be pathetic huh?! Ah well, all in good time (yeah right!!!)… but I will wait… and let time reveal what God has installed for me… in the meantime, I’ll just pretend nothing happened.
In the afternoon, I had my swim and usual sauna session. My weight hasn’t gone down that much but I think my skin is clearing up… Sauna helps… After sauna I sat by the pool a while watching Japanese kids practice their swimming with their trainer. Gosh they can even do the butterfly thingy. I have yet to learn how to swim properly. By the time I went up it was already half past seven. Tanti was carrying Puteri round the dining table again… “Fly her to India”… Mama would say… the baby just likes to be carried… we all know we really shouldn’t encourage her but she’s the first and she deserves all the pampering… she’s SO CUTE after all… she fussed a little more until about half past ten… when she slept Mama came out to have so instant noodle. Tanti made her a bowl with egg and mushrooms. The Tesco brand one is really not too bad; considering a pack of five only cost RM1.60. Abah asked whether I wanted dinner and I old him later. Tanti was glued to her computer again… she’s like that since I’ve got us connected to the net… Thank god for broadband… she’ll just be glued to the computer; downloading anime; updating forums; and stuff like that. The computer is just on everyday 10 am to 3am… she kept telling me it was my turn to make the drink… we take turns to make each other coffee of Milo… whichever… I was still chatting… when I finally made the drinks it was a little past midnight. I didn’t feel like eating anymore. I guess it’s good; I really didn’t need the extra weight. I finished chatting with my friends and turned off my notebook.
Me and Tanti then caught episode 120 of Naruto (nothing happened… it’s really annoying… our initial idea of allowing 20 episodes past before we watch is really good… if we have the patience that is… at least Naruto and gang is starting to fight…) and I finally slept at about two am.
Today is a new day; I am going to get some packing done. I hope it’ll be more fun in KL… Hmmm… We’ll see…
~ShaZ

tOo MuCh FrEe TiMe...

WHO & WHAT comes to your mind when
these things are mentioned?

Mornings
~~Work…. Hmm… I’d rather be in bed…
Lunch
~~A BiG FaT MeaL…
Afternoons
~~NaP TiMe
Evenings
~~NeeD to STicK to the WoRkouT… LooSe The BeLLy…
Mall
~~Versace, Prada, CK, BOSS, BVLGARI, Gucci… all damages to the CrEDit CaRd LiMit…
Movie
~~Hmm… I can DowNloaD iT or GeT iT a ThE PaSaR MaLaM… I ReAlLy aM a ChEapskatE… :P
Music
~~Hmm… This Love… She Weeel Beeee LoVeD… MaRooN5 is CooL..
Cars
~~MerCeDes BenZ… S-Class…
Chocolate
~~NiCe… I WaNt.. I wAnT… Hmm… ThiS iS GoNNa MaKe Me FAT!!!
Beer
~~Huh?! I doN’t DrInK..
Cream Puff
~~SeXy…. Erk… I am no PeRveRt…
Blue
~~ThE sKy… mY SwIm… Hmm..
Green
~~iS SeReNe… goT that fRoM RaVeN…
Yellow
~~ThE RoYal ColOR.. In MaLaYsIA ThAt iS..
Orange
~~LoTsA ViTamiN C…
Hate
~~My HaiR, My EyEs… ME….

---Which do you Prefer---

1.WHITE OR RED ROSES?
~~ReD… it’S SeXy…

2.ORIGINAL OR COPY?
~~OrIgInaL…

3.FAME, FORTUNE OR BOTH?
~~BoTh.. ‘coZ I aM SelFisH… anD I DO deserve BOTH… :P

4.RICKY MARTIN OR WILLIAM HUNG
~~RiCkY MaRTiN… I WaNt My BoDy tO LooK LiKe ThAt…

5.INCUBUS CONCERT OR KEITH MARTIN
CONCERT?
~~I HaTe ConcErTs… CrOwdED anD HoT… WoulD RaThER StaY HoMe aNd LisTeN to a cD…

6.CSI OR CSI MIAMI?
~~CSI… I cAn’T StanD ThE OthEr guY…

7. MULLET, MOHAWK, OR DREADLOCK???
~~ErK… NoNe…

8.LIFE OR DEATH?
~~LiFe… DeAth iS NoT thE SoluTioN…

9.RING(JAPANESE VER) OR THE RING
(AMERICAN VER)?
~~JaPaNeSe…

10.MUDSLIDE OR BAILEYS?
~~HuH?!....

----Q&A----

1.If you were the very last person on earth,
what would be the last thing you do before
you die?
~~PraY tO GoD ThaT I’d Go To HeaVeN WhEn I DiE…

2.If you could kill someone with no problems
at all, who would it be?
~~I CaN’t DecIde… WhO’s ThE CaUsE oF WaR and SuffERinG…

3. Do you agree with same-sex marraiges?
~~eRm… I aM GoinG To HaVe To gO with NO…

4.If you were in a party at Europe and
someone with the same sex kissed you on
the lips, what would you do?
~~I’d SaY… “I tHiNk yOu MiStooK mE fOr SomEoNe ElsE…” … So I aM a NiCe PeRsoN… :P

5.If you could turn back time, What year
would
you turn the time back to?
~~I WoulDn’t… I TrUsT ThAt GoD DiD WhAt Is BeSt…

6.If you could change your age, what age
would you change yourself into?
~~19… heY BuT I aM aLwAys 19…

----About secrets----
1.Do you have a crush?
~~YeS

2.Is he/she in your friends list?
~~I think sO…

3.How long has he/she been your crush?
~~3 YeaRs… GoSh ThaT SoUnDs PhaTheTic…

4.What is first letter of his/her name?
~~ErrRRrmmMMmm… R… LikE Me..

5.Name a song that you want to personally
sing.
~~ShE WeeeLll be LovvvvvvvEeedDD….

6.In your whole life, have you ever puffed the
magic dragon?
~~WhAT ThE HeLL KiNd oF QuEsTiON iS ThaT… HeLL NO!!!

7.When was the last time you got drunk?
~~NeVeR iS ThE AnsWeR tO ThAt…

----Yesterday----
1. What did you do yesterday?
~~LaUnDrY; ReVieD sOmE LeGaL DoCuMenTs; SwIm; SaUnA; WaTcH JaPaNeSe AnImE; BlOg; UpDatE FrIeNdStER; SlEEp; ChAt… ThAt’s All ThAT CaMe To MiNd…

2. Would you rather do something else?
~~HeLL Ya… I’d RaThEr Be ShoPPing WiTh a LiMitLeSs CreDiT CaRd ThAt ThE BiLL I dOn’T HaVe To PaY…

3. Met any new person?
~~YeAh.. oNe… a JaPaNeSe GuY wHo Owns A ChaIn Of JaP ReStaUraNts in PeNaNg anD KL…

4. What did you eat?
~~BuRgEr…

5. Bought anything?
~~BunCh Of ThInGs… CaN’t ReMemBeR…

6. Tell me something memorable from
yesterday?
~~Hmmm…. Well… Hmmm… NuThInG…

More Agreements... *sigh*

Hey blog… Today passed on without much significance. I say that all the time. Well, that’s how I feel honestly. There’s not much work to do (not that I am complaining), not physical work at least. Most of what I do involves reviewing papers and meeting people; and lately it more of the paperwork. Much of it is to make sure we can go back to KL again. In a way I am kind of sad that we are leaving Penang. I especially like our condo here. Gurney Drive is really a nice place to be. Next to Amman, Jordan this is the place I most recommend. There’s not much activity; but at the same time not too dead.
Gosh this song is nice: Thank You! by Home Made Kazoku
I really meant to write something last night but I was too tired. After Tan left it was already after 7 pm. After moving the baby cot and PC to his car I had very little energy left. The plan to go for a swim and sauna had to be postponed. Well, Anna got a ride back to KL from Tan. It’s safer that way. I don’t think Abah is too comfortable having her travel alone. I don’t think she’s coming back though. There’s just no point. She’s going to start work on the 11th and we have to be in KL before the 15th. Gosh there a lot to pack. I hate moving. Even though it’s just mostly clothes and books; thank god for fully furnished apartments. I hope the new one will be as nice as this one. Well by the time she got home it was already half past midnight. Tanti and I were watching Elfen Lied; we saw the whole season; all twelve episodes direct in one go; and slept at four am. Well, almost. Quite a good Japanese anime that one; a little gruesome at some points but the storyline’s good and I especially like the song at the beginning of each episode.
By the time I got up it was already a quarter past noon. Gosh I was hungry. Had lunch and waited for Ranjit to send over the agreement for me to review. He sent one over at three. He promised three but only one came. Oh well… the one he sent needed a lot of amendments. *sigh* it is my job after all. I spent a few hours chatting to Kamal and played a little of chess and pool with him. On Yahoo that is. He beat the crap out of me. My first time of Yahoo Pool didn’t end up to nicely with me having 3 balls left behind. We spoke of relationships too. He didn’t agree too much with the way I see things though. He is a nice man that one. Better than I am. I hope he made the right choice. I hope I will too…
I have to outline another agreement with Riza now. Will write more soon.
~ShaZ

Another boring day

Today is one of those days where nothing happened; and passed on without any significance. The lawyer cancelled our meeting at three; he called at 1:00 pm; gosh… was looking forward to get these legal matters out of my head once and for all. Apparently some emergency came up; something that couldn’t be postponed. Well, I’ll just have to wait until tomorrow then. Tan had driven all the way from KL; by the time I called him to tell him today’s meeting is off he was already somewhere near Taiping. Oh well… he’ll just have to stay the night. The meeting tomorrow is important. The agreements must be reviewed and completed as soon as possible. As soon as operations start in Teluk Intan most of my problems would be solved. We’d be able to move back to KL. Hmmm… Tan was telling us that he managed to see a few a few condo unit near his place. Personally I am not to excited about living in Cheras; but hey the man already went through all the trouble.
If there is something I could remember from today is Rizal calling; again and again. Asking all sorts of things about the concession. Gosh he is persistent… and kinda annoying too. But I guess he wants his share of the benefits…
I had to go out of the house still though; even though the meeting was cancelled; we needed to get some groceries… I hate going out… my sister had to make a few stops at a few banks so we drove around town making the stops. By the time we got home it was already close to 3. We had our late lunch; or breakfast rather; and I managed to go thru’ some of my emails. Nothing significant though.
I think I’ll go play with my Neopet now… till tomorrow then.
~ShaZ

Kuala Kangsar for the weekend...

Hello Blog… It’s been a while since my last post. So much has happened since then. I have wanted to post, and there is so much I want to post; but I have been so busy. Maybe I’ll do it in the future. Work and other stuff have been keeping me preoccupied these two weeks. I had to travel to KL and back for a few meetings. Boy that was tiring. I am glad that a few things are moving along now. For the company that is. So let’s start about today’s post.
A large portion of today was spent in the car; we drove back from Kuala Kangsar taking the old route. It sure took longer; an hour or so longer; but the trip was quite worth it. We managed to spend some quality family time together (Mama, Abah, Tanti, Anna, Puteri and I). Trips on the PLUS highway seem so rushed and business related to me lately. It’s been too familiar to me. I have recognized some trees and houses along the way; having traveled from Penang to KL and back to many times. The trips are just becoming too familiar. Anyway, let’s not talk about that. Not today…
Abah wanted to so much to ‘sembah’ (introduce) Puteri to his grandmother. She’s old and cute. Having lived 94 years she’s buried all but one of her children. It was quite weird to see your great grandmother and your niece in one place. Puteri was quite comfortable around her great great grandmother. Imagine… if she met her grandparents; then she has lived through seven generations and four sultans in Perak. She has seen a lot. For someone at her age, I imagine she is in good shape; she could walk and still do things without any help at all. Her eyesight and hearing has been deteriorating lately though. :-(
Ku Izah’s (my grandaunt) house is quite comfortable; as opposed to the old house they used to stay in. But the situation is quite similar to what happened with my mom’s family. The family usually wants to go back to the great grandmother’s house. Not her house. But everyone seems to be accepting it now. It might be unfair to Ku Izah also if everyone is condemning her because she DOES take care of great grandmother. Enough of that now… Let the elders deal with the family disputes.
Ayah Chu was quite excited with our visit. Maybe he is bored living with two old ladies without anyone to talk to. He made us spaghetti and lots of other food. I think I’ve eaten a week’s worth of calories in the two days we were in Kuala Kangsar. But he seems happy, so it’s okay. It’s not like we do it all the time. Ku Izah didn’t mention about the Raja Ampuan’s land… I was really hoping to hear how much she was willing to take for that piece of land. There’s still much else to tend to; but having a house there would be nice. After all, uncle Murad bought over great grandmother’s land. At least we’d have a kampong to go back to. If the Teluk Intan project goes according to plan, I’ll make her an offer.
I called Sharifah Nawal from there too. It’s been ages since I heard from her. At first she didn’t know who I was… why would she? We haven’t seen each other in 13 years. Well, we managed to ask what each other is doing and set another rendezvous online tonight (she’s already 1 hour late though… >:-|). It would be nice to know what she is up to now. All that I know so far is she works in DHL and she is still single and available… hubba hubba… anyways, she’s off limits… for now a least :-P
That’s enough for now I guess… I’ll write later okay… I promise.
~ShaZ

Viva La Lunchroom....

Hey I am back. Actually I learned something from that guy I met yesterday. I especially like what he said about hospitals being a sick-care place instead of a health-care. He told me that money is not the most important thing in the world. Sure if we spend RM10 for a cup of coffee at the hotel coffeehouse and listen to music played u get pleasure out of it. But if we don’t have good health we cannot enjoy as well. I guess it’s true to an extent. I guess it’s a rich men’s philosophy. I know people who jeopardize their health and well for work and for what? MONEY… So some people see things differently. But it’s a good point though. I may have not put it nicely here but it really is a good point. Although I strongly believe that money IS equally important.
Yesterday night I was really beat for some reason. Perhaps it’s because I really enjoyed the LONG sleep from the night before ^_^. I made a mental note to retire early that night. So I switched on my notebook to check my email, and send out some legal documents to be reviewed by some of our financiers. That took some time. Fooled around with my Neopet and before I know it was already 1:00 am. So much for an early retirement. :-P
At that point Lenny signed in. I really like talking to Lenny because I really don’t know him that well and he’s about my age so I feel I can open up to him. I almost only interact with ‘old’ people so when I am chatting with Lenny it’s like I am talking to my friends back in KL. Gosh I miss them. On the other hand I really like the lifestyle here in Penang. Everything is not in fast-forward mode here. It takes only about five minutes (max) from my apartment to the office. There’s hardly ever traffic (I make it a point to stay off the roads during peak hours) and it always feels like I am living in a resort. Well, Lenny is a guy I met on Skype. He’s Singaporean and he’s really very smart. I subscribe to his blog nowadays and chat with him whenever I can. It’s like a window to the KL life for me, except I am not a witch like in Snow White. Anyway, we spent most of the time last night talking about sofas. His family is moving to a new house so they’re searching for a new sofa. I ended up recommending him to the places that we went back in KL. I learnt that no everyone goes for the Chesterfield set that I find 'to die for'. I think I must’ve have bored him because at one point he told me I should’ve been an architect or an interior decorator. Well, I wouldn’t have minded taking any one of those courses but I really do like Chemical Engineering as well. I also recommended that little shop in Lot 10. They have the most comfortable feather-down sofas. They also last like forever. I know this for a fact because a friend of ours bought the set and use it as her TV couch. Its really very durable coz after a few years it still looks like new. Well, enough about that.
Nothing much happened today as well (surprise of the century eh?!... :-P). Had my regular pool and sauna session and Mama made chicken pie for lunch. It was really nice. I always prefer home made ones to the ones we get from bakeries. Since I am watching my weight I only had two pieces. Considering that in only had peanut butter sandwich this morning (sprinkled with white chocolate chips… shame on me…) and the fact that I am skipping dinner; I should be loosing some weight (soon... yeah right). Hopefully.
Met Mr. Loke in the sauna as usual. We had our opening conversation about the business condition in Malaysia and how businesses are suffering now. By that time the thermometer was already showing 175 degrees. Gosh I was really cooking in there. He must’ve have noticed it too because he followed me when I left the room for about five minutes. We went back in and it was time for my free lesson in golf (he has been trying to get me into golf for months now… soon… I keep telling him). Somehow the conversation drifted about this good Chinese masseuse. He told me she was partly the reason he won last year’s Penang Turf Club Championship. Oh well, I’ll go visit her one of these day. He promised to hook me up when this woman actually comes back from China. I sure could use some fixing for my back at this point of time.
It was about 7:20 pm when I came up, did my dusk prayers quickly and got dressed to go to Giant Hypermart. Need to the formula milk for my cute lil’ niece. My credit card statement also came in today. I just counted the figures… One… Two… Three… Four… no fifth digit… okay I am still alright. I really am spending a lot nowadays. Don’t really see where the money goes to though. Oh well, at least I am happy… to an extent.
Hey I forgot to write about my chat with Reef. She’s the gal I was really close to back during my internship in Puchong. She was telling me of her preparations to go to Germany in March. Her brother is getting engaged too. Everyone seems to be doing well (my friends from uni that is…). I am happy for them… Wish I could feel the same about me. I must be some unthankful brat… but I feel that there’s still plenty that could do… it’s stupid to want more work right?! But that’s really how I feel. I don’t like to feel useless. I’ll work for that lunchroom of mine. This time I won’t let no stupid fat agent nor the bloody bloodsucking landlord fool around with me. I’ll work on this. Hopefully, it will keep me occupied for some time. Heheheh… I still want that La Pavoni coffee machine… (I blame Lenny for this…) I’ll be back soon…
Oh… today’s episode of Mi Gorda Bella was good…
~ShaZ

Another boring day

Not much happened today as well. One might wonder if anything ever happens with me ever. I have been pretty depressed lately… still… I really don’t know why. Everything just seems wrong. Maybe it’s because I’ve gained a little weight. Or maybe it’s this big zit on my left cheek. Or maybe it’s nothing at all. I just can’t figure it out. Or maybe I’m just stupid. Yeah, maybe that’s it.
The second half of yesterday gave me some relief. I got my regular swim and sauna. Actually, nowadays… it’s just my swim and sauna that gives me a little peace of mind. It’s something I could do without thinking too much of anything or anyone. Just keep counting the laps. Thank god for the 8 ½ feet deep pool, I just hate swimming where my feet touch the bottom.
Damn… the phone is ringing…
Now where was I?... Hmmm…
Well, enough about that… by the time I was done it was almost 8:00. I came up, changed, had dinner and before nine I was already in bed. My sister woke me up at midnight or so and gave me a cup of hot chocolate. After that cup I slept through the night like a baby.
Today started out well… umm… yesterday now… had a big breakfast. Worked on my notebook most of the time… although I have yet to get my Masters proposal complete… well the Senate is not sitting until middle of this month anyways.
Had a meeting at 3 o’clock at the Evergreen Laurel… I just had coffee… sat there and listened to some rich guy talk business… I have been having a hard time to concentrate lately. I kept phasing out, even when I was presenting the cashflow projections to him. I hope he didn’t notice it though.
I’ll write more later…
~ShaZ

If a dog can pull it off... so can I

Not much happened today. The family took the baby (my niece) to the clinic to get her Hepatitis jab or something like that. I stayed back. Wanted to get some laundry done and I needed to call the bank. Need more cash!!! I like doing laundry when I am stressed. It just releases me somehow. By the time I was through with laundry it was already almost noon. My stomach was already reminding me that I haven’t had my usual dose of coffee. I switched on my laptop and chatted a bit with Lenny. I was pretty depressed from yesterday’s meeting and we discussed about my getting away from work and working part-time selling perfumes. I seriously DID consider doing it. The thought of just going to work everyday just to sell perfume to complete strangers (or idiots…) really did sound appealing. No decisions, no headaches, no four hour negotiations, no big-headed-pompous-stupid boss who doesn’t appreciate your work, and no depression. Just work. Lenny didn’t seem to agree much though but we did agree I need to go out more and get me a good pair of boobs. We didn’t chat long because I really needed something in my stomach. I ransacked the kitchen but in vain. There was literally nothing to eat in the house. I got into the bathroom and take my usual 45 minutes to get ready (I just don’t get people who rush…). My mom brought back rice from some ‘mamak’ restaurant which was quite good. There was a big heap of curry soaked rice with a quarter of a chicken and some veggies for every one of us.
After lunch (or brunch, or breakfast… whatever), everyone was too sleepy to get anything done, myself included. I decided the bank can wait until tomorrow. Got some shuteye until about 4:00 pm.
That afternoon, during our aimless drive (we had nothing much to do… lolz) I saw something that touched me. We came across this dog that was limping crossing the street. We slowed down. After it crossed the street it stopped limping and started to walk like any other dog. Even a dog could learn to pretend to be limp when crossing the street so people would take pity and slow down instead of honking at it. What is the world coming to? It’s like my having to smile at my boss even though I feel like strangling him. I just need to cross the street after all… I’ll just pretend. I am still pissed though. Just less…
~ShaZ

2005.... *sigh*

I have been neglecting my blog again… that’s just because I have been pretty stressed lately. My shop is not turning out how it’s supposed to be. Besides I haven’t had much time to myself. My uncle came down from KL so we spent most of the time showing him around, and looking for a new shop (… because the last vendor that took our deposit apparently had some problems with the previous tenant. It’ quite a bitch really… well this tenant of his gave him a notice before his two year contract is finished. So he told the landlord to just forfeit his deposit and forget about the whole damned thing… but ‘no’… this bloodsucking sonofab*tch want to sue the guy to pay him another year’s rent. WTF!!! So his lawyer; bless his soul for advising me to back out of this one and told the property broker to return my cheque; called the whole thing off. My check came back looking half chewed… would it have been valid in such a condition anyways. I know I should not mind but the there’s that little feeling of anger in my heart; it’s like a disgrace of my cheques; with MY signature to be treated in such a manner. Enough about that…). My uncle is really a fun guy, he works for DRB HICOM and we call him Uncle Mie. He is actually my mum’s cousin but my grandparents took care of him so he’s like a real uncle. He took care of me and my sister too sometime back. Well, the shop that I plan to set up is basically for him and my sister. They seemed eager to do it and I am happy to be able to help.
We drove around the island; taking numbers that agents have pasted on shop lots for let. Anyways, we had a good time. He is happy too, I think.
The New Year’s Eve was spent at home. I was a little sad that all the festivities were cancelled because of the Tsunami. I guess it’s for the best. Going out would mean more damage to my credit card limit anyways. So we stayed home and stuffed our face. Uncle Mie is a good cook and he likes cooking. So he cooks the food when he’s around. He made a large lunch and that day. We had rice, fish, chicken and vegetables. I ate like a pig (even without my pill… way to go…). So I am proud to say I entered 2005 stuffing my face with food… hahaha… what a way to go…
New Year’s Day was spent at home with my family. Uncle Mie’s ticket is at 5:30pm so we thought we’d spend the day at home. I played with my niece most of the day.
My Master’s proposal is still lying on the cabinet; catching dust; I just don’t have the mood. Maybe I’ll get some of it done today. I should have time. I have been neglecting my everyday swim too… Gosh I feel bloated.
We sent him to the station and I, mom and dad went around some more to find a new location. There’s just not one to our taste. We were all starting to feel pretty depressed by then. We drove back and by the time we got back the sun had already set. I was; by then; developing a bitch-of-a-headache. After prayers I dozed tried to sleep a little but couldn’t… was still too pissed. I turned on my notebook and checked my email. Saw Michael there and chatted with him a little. He’s a cute character… I told him I was depressed and he told me to watch a movie on my notebook… Simple!! I wish it were that simple. Leonard came in later, I was happy… I like chatting with Leonard. He makes me feel like an idiot most of the time but I like him. He seems very honest. Well, we chatted about boobs and asses and Marion… hehehehe… and not to mention how I hate low cut pants. Thank you Lenny for cheering me up. I better sign off now. I have a meeting in a few minutes… Damned businessmen.
~ShaZ